Reporter's journal | Jerry Brewer on covering Gloria Strauss

August 1, 6:06 p.m.

I just received word that Part 6 is going to be held, most likely until Saturday. I'll let you know when I know the exact run date.

The reason: breaking news. I badly want to get this story in the paper, but this is how it goes in the news business sometimes.

Anyway, the Strausses are back home. They had a relaxing few days away. Gloria is holding steady. But doctors are worried her mother, Kristen, might have mono. Kristen is feeling OK, but she's still fatigued. Then again, with the late nights the parents keep to look after Gloria, they are always tired to some degree.

After this next story runs, we're going to pay extra careful attention to where to proceed next. There could be a longer-than-usual gap between stories. Or if something significant happens, another story might appear sooner than expected.

If there is silence, don't be alarmed. I will work even harder to update this journal with what's going on in addition to sharing my thoughts.

On Saturday, I will write an extended piece on Kristen in this journal, mostly through the eyes of people who have watched her over the years. There's so much more to that woman that I can show in my newspaper stories, and with Saturday's piece focusing so heavily on her, I want to take the time to explain Gloria's mother better.

In the near future, I will do the same with Gloria's father, Doug.

August 2

Part Six of the series will run in Saturday's paper. If there's something out of the ordinary that delays it, I'll let you know. But look for it Saturday.

KOMO 4 News' Problem Solvers did a nice piece on the Strausses today.

Here's another example of people rallying to help this family. Competing media groups normally don't "chase" each other's feature stories. We compete on hard news, but if one media entity tells an intimate story, we generally don't want to do duplicate that piece.

Unless the story is compelling enough.

Unless there are so many stories within the story that allow you to take the audience different places.

In the Strausses' case, this is absolutely true. I'm excited that KOMO and other TV outlets have picked up the story. The typical journalist's reaction would be to get jealous or territorial, but as I've said before, this story is so much bigger than me.

Some of my fellow journalists have taken the same approach, it seems. A lot of times, news organizations say, "Oh, so and so has already done that story." Instead, they've been moved by this family and inspired to help.

In addition, they've contributed elements to this story that complement what we've done at The Times. That's not their goal -- we all just give our readers/viewers the best and most accurate stories possible -- but it's a nice byproduct.

KOMO and King5 have done Gloria pieces that center on helping the family recover their stolen videos. I wrote about it in a previous story, but my series is about the big picture: the family's faith, Gloria's struggles and their journey while hoping for a miracle.

Focusing on the big picture, I can't hone in on the stolen videos as effectively as someone telling the story from a different, less involved, angle.

The family is desperate to get those stolen videos back. It may be impossible now, but perhaps the thieves were watching TV this afternoon and realized what they did. Perhaps someone else can provide clues on where to find the videos. Perhaps more media attention would motivate Federal Way police to make solving the crime a priority.

Perhaps a lifetime of memories would be returned to the Strausses.

That would be a miracle, too.

August 4

In today's Part Six of "A Prayer for Gloria," Gloria Strauss is doing remarkably well, but her mother is suffering from a bout of strep throat. We use this situation to delve into the family's long history with illnesses.

This piece just presented the tip of the iceberg, really. We focused on three women: Kristen Strauss, Gloria's mother; Diane Strauss, Gloria's paternal grandmother; and Dorothy Trimberger, Gloria's late great aunt.

We could've cited many more examples of illness on both the Strauss and Trimberger side of the family, but there were a few reasons for not going even more in depth. First of all, with Gloria walking, we didn't want to ruin her "mini-miracle" -- the action in this story -- with too many flashbacks to suffering. Secondly, to go person for person, illness for illness, would've taken so much space, and readers would've been lost in what was happening.

It doesn't minimize the grief of the rest of her family. In the journalism business, however, you rarely tell 100 percent of the story. You hit the highlights and present the big picture.

The purpose of this story was to show what's in Gloria's blood. Specifically, readers needed to understand that cancer runs deep in her family, that the Strausses use their faith to find meaning in suffering and that they are all born tough and resilient.

Diane survived breast cancer with unbelievable willpower. Aunt Dorothy survived breast cancer and then died of brain cancer, but she never let it define her. And Kristen has practically willed her multiple sclerosis into remission.

Kristen is the heart of this piece. Think of her and Gloria as the same person. All children are a mixture of their mothers and fathers, and one thing I've wanted to do throughout this series is develop the characters of Kristen and Doug to give more insight on Gloria.

Let's focus on Kristen. Even though I wrote so much about her in this piece, I feel like readers only know one dimension of her: the tough, faithful, motherly side. Those are her most dominant characteristics, but she's so much more.

She's not serious all the time.

"For the most part, people think she's quiet," said Lori Rosellini, a friend who grew up with Kristen. "She's hilariously funny. When she's relaxing, she's like a kid. A group of moms, we go out. We pick the stupid, dumb Will Farrell-based movies. It's a lot of fun.

"She's a very true person. She's a very good friend. She's very honest. She brings out the best in all of us."

Lori's sister, Jennifer Vertetis, is close with Kristen, too. Jennifer marvels at how Kristen has reduced her MS to a near afterthought.

"It's amazing," Jennifer says. "She doesn't talk much about the fatigue and the shots she takes. I remember one time she was tired, and she came to my house. You just don't realize the suffering she went through."

Mary Caldwell, another family friend, says "Kristen's simple, childlike faith taught me how to trust in Jesus."

And here's one more quote from a friend, Kelley Masterson: "I've seen where she feels like her arms are tired from hanging on that rope, but not very often. You look at her, and your cross shrinks."

I'm not trying to turn Kristen into a saint here. She's human. She has flaws. She admits to them all the time. People often question her willingness to have more children after her MS diagnosis and after Gloria's cancer, and it bothers her. Her explanation is simple: She's open to life. She loves children.

And if you spend time around the family, you realize that having seven children is rarely a burden. Doug and Kristen find time for all of them, even with Gloria sick.

I'll close with an excerpt from a letter that Stephanie Squires, a Strauss friend who attends Seattle University, sent to Kristen a few months ago. I've covered this family for five months, and I'm still amazed how much they inspire people. Stephanie expresses the feelings of many in this letter.

Here is the first paragraph from Stephanie's letter:

"You are the strongest, most beautiful woman that I have ever met, both inside and out. You are going through a situation in which most people would crumble, but you are handling it with grace and strength. You are such a woman of faith! I had a huge turning point in my faith last year at Gloria's healing mass. After I spoke with Gloria, I hugged you and as you had one hand on your daughter and one on me, you prayed over me. I can't describe the feeling that came over me, but it was so very powerful. Every word that comes out of your mouth hits me right in the heart, to the core of my being. I think that is why I feel so attracted to you and your family: because they are a great image of the kind of family that I want to have when I'm married."

August 6, 3:14 p.m.

Quick update on the Strauss family: Gloria is still doing really well, although she has experienced some chest pain lately. It's not stopping her from being active, however.

Gloria's father, Doug, has realized he's about three weeks from the start of school. Doug teaches math and Spanish at Kennedy High School in Burien, and he coaches the boys' basketball team.

Dad is torn right now. He wants to do his job and teach his students, but he doesn't want to stop helping Gloria around the clock. He has to make money, but he has to protect his daughter. His worst nightmare is to be at work when Gloria really needs him. And he doesn't want to be too distracted while teaching because it's not fair to the students.

This dilemma is an aspect of the story we have yet to encounter. When we began this journey with the Strausses, Doug was just about to take a leave from work. I've never seen him have to balance work since Gloria's condition has worsened. He did it before we even discovered the family, and my best guess is he'll do it again. We will see how he handles that emotional tug-of-war.

Kristen has gotten better. She's not in perfect health, but she seems like her normal self. Doug has been teasing Kristen about the picture of Mom shooting up her multiple sclerosis medicine on the front page of The Times on Saturday.

It was a beautiful, touching photo that shows Kristen's struggle, which is often a private one. It has to be weird to have thousands of readers seeing you stick a needle into your arm.

Once again, the Strausses deserve much credit for being so open.

August 11, 11:47 a.m.

I have some disappointing news about Gloria. Over the past two days, her pain has increased dramatically. She is in constant agony right now, and she has been experiencing some labored breathing.

For most of the past month, Gloria had responded well to the drug Dilaudid. Doug says she had been taking about 50 milligrams per hour of it through an IV, and she had been moving around well.

In one 12-hour period from Thursday night to Friday morning, Gloria went from 50 milligrams to 85 milligrams of Dilaudid. Last I heard, she was up to 100 milligrams. It's still not sufficient for her pain.

Her father said yesterday that Gloria would likely switch to another drug soon. I'm on an e-mail group led by the Brennan family, who are close friends with the Strausses. At 11 this morning, the Brennans sent out an e-mail saying that Gloria's parents took her to Children's Hospital to get looked at because, over the phone, Gloria's oncologist said her labored breathing could be because cancer is pushing against her lungs.

The Brennans left this message:

"The family is asking that everyone pray, pray harder than ever. We are not giving up. With God, all things are possible. He can heal Gloria. They have always known it will get worse before it gets better and that has happened. Now we are praying that God will take her cross so that she can have her healthy life back. This time is especially difficult for Doug and Kristen. Please pray that God will give them strength and comfort. Please spread the word to people (e-mail, phone, Myspace, word of mouth, however), we need as many people praying as possible."

I will update this journal when I know more.

August 11, 11:07 p.m.

I returned from the hospital about an hour ago. Gloria is in a medically induced coma.

Early this morning, her breathing got heavy. Her parents called an ambulance, Gloria started having seizures, her heart stopped temporarily, and then she was medicated into her current unconscious state.

The Strauss family is still praying for a miracle, and her parents say they will do so until they feel God is telling them not to.

Today was a day the Strausses have always dreaded. It was the most emotional day I've ever had as a reporter. I don't quite know how to handle it. I'm just operating with good intentions and letting the story guide itself.

Gloria is such an amazing little girl. Following the family's story has redefined how I view journalism. Getting to know Gloria these past few months has made me a better writer, better reporter and a better person.

I hope I will have a chance to tell her that.

It's been such an exhausting day. In the morning, I will write more.

August 12, 3:24 p.m.

Gloria's parents have been sleeping for the past few hours. It's much needed rest.

The latest news is that Gloria will be slowly weaned off her numerous medicines because doctors want her to start breathing on her own.

She's almost there right now. She's barely using her breathing tube for support now. So the goal is to wake her and take out the tube before the end of the day.

What's unknown, however, is what Gloria's pain and other symptoms will be like once she is out of this coma.

Family and friends here are obviously encouraged by this latest news. The hope is that Gloria will get to talk with her family.

It's been interesting to see some of the family's supporters come together in the intensive care waiting room. Some had never met before. I've been paying careful attention to how people are reacting now that they're realizing how vast Gloria's support base is.

It's very uplifting to see these people, who've been on the same mission for more than four years, united. And they refuse to give up, too.

Also, I have some information to pass along:

For those wanting to pray with others for Gloria, St. Philomena Parish's 5:30 p.m. Mass tonight would be a good place to go. A huge group of the Strausses' friends will be there.

St. Philomena is in Des Moines.

The address is:
1790 S. 222nd St.
Des Moines, WA 98198

August 13

There's nothing new on Gloria right now. The process to bring the 11-year-old girl out of heavy sedation is taking a long time.

It's no cause for alarm; she simply must be weaned off the medicines slowly. There's no real timetable.

On Sunday, the hope was to have it done by the end of the day. Today, the hope is to have it done by the end of the day. We'll see.

The biggest issue, from what I understand, is the anti-seizure medication. Gloria can't be taken off that drug cold turkey. It would have a dramatic effect on her body.

A fresh group of visitors has arrived, and there are preliminary plans for another prayer session again tonight.

It's becoming obvious to everyone here that this situation has gone from a sprint to save Gloria to a slow, drawn-out dilemma.

On some levels, that's comforting. But everyone is eager for Gloria to awaken. Then they will gain more clarity about the next step.

August 12, 12:35 p.m.

Doctors are consulting Gloria's parents about her latest scans right now. Her condition remained the same overnight.

She's still in a medically induced coma. Let me add more explanation to her condition.

A CT scan on Saturday revealed the cancer has spread to Gloria's brain. The way Gloria's father, Doug, understands it, a tumor burst in her head Saturday. That was probably the cause of her seizures.

Gloria also has a tumor on her left lung. Dr. Julie Park, her oncologist, also told the Strausses that Gloria's chest pain could be from cancer invading her heart.

Throughout her 11 years, Gloria has made some amazing medical rallies, but she is cornered like she has never been before.

Dr. Park has told the family there's no way for Gloria to escape.

It's jarring to see her in bed with a respirator doing her breathing. Some close friends -- Theresa Brennan, Jeanine and Jessica Morley -- visited a while ago, and their faces expressed exactly what I felt.

It's hard to get over how quickly this happened. Just last Sunday, Gloria was healthy enough to spend the night at a friend's house. Two nights ago, she was joking on the phone with Jason Prouty, one of Doug's best friends.

On Saturday, her parents placed a crucifix on Gloria's chest, and I couldn't stop looking at it. As the respirator filled her body with air, the crucifix would rise along with Gloria's chest. That image stays with me. The message of why she's suffering was right there, obvious with every breath.

Then I looked at a dry-eraser board in her room. It reads, "We're Here To Glorify God Through God."

Last night, after some arguing, Doug got permission for a group of about 20 to pray over Gloria. It was so moving. No dry eyes.

But I can't escape this feeling of helplessness. All people can truly do now is pray to God. The cancer has her boxed in. She's in an intensive care unit that allows little access. She's trapped in a building with suffering children all around.

And so we continue to wait.

And wait.

And wait.

August 13

OK, while we wait, let's allow a few family friends to answer The Question:

"If Gloria Strauss doesn't get her miracle, can the Strausses handle it?"

They all say yes.

They all say they don't want to have to find out, either.

Asked if he worries about how the family might handle the worst-case scenario, Jason Prouty, a friend of Gloria's father, said: "Not for a second. They all know and are prepared for both situations. Whether the miracle happens or not, everyone has been prepared.

"So, could I foresee anything cataclysmic? No."

Jennifer Vertetis has known Gloria's mother, Kristen, since she was 2. She remains amazed at how much the family has handled. If anyone fears the future, just look at how gracefully they've overcome the past, she says.

"When Gloria was diagnosed with cancer and Kristen with her multiple sclerosis, you realized the family was different and special," Vertetis said. "Other people would turn away from God and be angry. They're amazing."

Marilyn Porter, who drives the Strauss kids to school, uses the family as an example in her life.

"They're almost a guide for me and my son," Porter said.

We've covered a lot of this subtly throughout the series, but this serves as another reminder of the strength of the family's faith.

Now, over the course of the series, I've heard from non-religious people who agonize over this series. Naturally, from the minute they heard of Gloria's story, they believed she would die. And they've been angry to have to go through this emotional journey. The more she suffers, the angrier they get.

As a writer, I only try to write a compelling, compassionate story. As a general rule for writing any story, I don't judge beliefs or values, unless they're criminal.

I simply present the Strausses' tale and leave readers to make their own conclusions. Regardless of your beliefs, there's something in the story you can relate to: lessons on parenting, faith, suffering, the innocence of children, an understanding of how much ground we have left to cover fighting cancer.

I don't preach. I present. And this story isn't intended to glorify or condemn anything. It's heavy on Catholicism because religion runs deep in this family's blood. To write in any other way would misrepresent the Strausses. And to ignore the story because everybody doesn't believe the same thing would be ignorant.

This is one family's highly personal testimony. Take from it whatever you want, but it's compelling, and we'll follow it until the end.

August 13

Doug and Kristen addressed their family friends a few minutes ago. Doug did all the talking, and Kristen nodded in agreement.

He didn't offer too many details. Instead, the father explained to the group what the Strausses are praying for and why.

I think Doug did that partly to inform a new batch of visitors. Many of the people here today are visiting Gloria for the first time. They're mostly from Doug's side of the family, and once again, it's amazing to see how many people have come for support. Every day, there are fresh faces.

Knowing Doug, however, I also think he explained things for personal affirmation. He often repeats what he believes is right, almost as a reminder. He knows Gloria has an important moment coming.

He told everyone that this morning has been difficult, but that he and Kristen still don't believe they're hearing God tell them to give up. So they're praying for a miracle, but they're also praying for God's will.

"We're not denying that heaven could be possible," Doug said.

He said that without hesitation, without tears.

Doug and Kristen seemed extraordinarily calm. Doug was his typical joking self.

The parents have prepared themselves for whatever happens.

Everybody who has followed this story understands that has always been the underlying question: If Gloria doesn't get her miracle, how will this family react?

Obviously, you cannot predict that answer. But all signs suggest they are strong enough to stick to their religious convictions.

In fact, as we wait, I'll try to post an entry in which family friends comment on that very subject. Throughout my reporting of this series, I've always asked that question.

To a person, the answer has been the same: the Strauss family can handle anything.

Right now, they're walking blind and preparing themselves for that "anything."

At this moment, Doug and Kristen are allowing their visitors a few minutes with Gloria. Soon, the medical staff will be restricting access and waiting for Gloria to rise.

August 13

Gloria Strauss' parents, Doug and Kristen, have been talking with doctors for quite a while now. They're being briefed on what will happen once Gloria fully awakens from sedation. She is slowly reaching that point.

The parents are being told to expect a rough few hours once Gloria comes out of this medically-induced coma. Doctors anticipate she will be a lot of pain, possibly a frightening amount. There are a lot of things the doctors will have to get under control quickly.

A family friend is bringing over communion, and once the family partakes in communion, only Doug and Kristen will be allowed to sit with Gloria.

That's about all I know. I'm sitting in an intensive care unit waiting room, expecting to hear more in the next few minutes. Doug is probably going to come out and give everyone the full report soon.

Another huge moment in Gloria's journey is nearing.

August 13

I'm going to the hospital to check on Gloria as soon as I finish this journal entry.

As of late last night, her condition was the same. The medical staff was still going through the process of slowly bringing her out of heavy sedation. The spirits of her friends and family had been lifted after hearing that signs indicated that Gloria was breathing well enough to be taken out of this induced coma.

When Gloria is taken off some of these meds, then another huge part of this journey begins. What will her pain level be? How will she react? Can doctors prevent her from having more seizures? When the breathing tube comes out, can she continue to breathe on her own?

There are many questions to be answered.

At the end of last night, people left feeling comforted. They were allowed an hour-long prayer session in Gloria's room. I'd estimate about 30 family and friends were there to pray, sing and recite the Rosary.

(As a side note, the Strausses say they are very thankful for everyone who is praying for them. They know there are others who would like to visit, but because of hospital rules, they ask that the group of visitors remain small. But they want everyone to know you are all in their thoughts.)

One quote from Tom Curran, a Strauss family friend who runs a Catholic ministry, sticks out. He kept calling this the "culminating moment of four years."

For four years, 11-year-old Gloria has fought neuroblastoma. She's survived seven chemotherapy treatments, a stem-cell transplant and several experimental drugs. More than three months ago, Gloria's doctor told the family that Gloria was down to weeks to live.

So the family opted to stop treating her with experimental drugs and turn solely to God for a healing miracle. Now we're at the "culminating moment of four years."

I've experienced this story for about six months. It's hard for me to grasp what it would've been like to go through this for four years.

Curran talked about the "thin veil between heaven and earth" a few times in prayer. He asked Jesus to come closer to the situation.

Many cried, but of all the breakdowns, the one that struck me the most came when I saw Alissa Strauss, Gloria's 13-year-old sister, crying.

Alissa is the oldest of seven children, and she is strength personified. I'd never seen her get rattled. As she walked by with her youngest sister, 9-year-old Maria, on Sunday, one of the family's friends said, "When did Alissa turn 24?" She is an adult in speech and action. When she started crying, she covered her face, but you could see her pain because her body was trembling. I started to cry after seeing that.

Seeing Alissa vulnerable made me realize she's even stronger than I knew.

Gloria's parents, Doug and Kristen Strauss, are trying to balance letting their kids be kids with making sure they understand the seriousness of the situation. So, for some of the day, they let the kids have fun with babysitters, but they also demand they spend plenty of time with Gloria.

They're not shielding their children from anything.

As Doug said, "I don't want them have problems two months from now that we can't see developing right now." Though younger, the rest of the children seem to share Alissa's strength.

August 14

The night ended with the most moving prayer session since Gloria Strauss was admitted to Children's Hospital.

I'll have more details later today, but I wanted to provide a quick update.

When I left about 45 minutes ago, Gloria was still in a medically-induced coma. Her parents revealed during the prayer session that they had an extremely rough morning. They learned this coma is really affecting Gloria's kidneys. Also, her liver is full of cancer.

Let's recap/clarify what Gloria is facing right now. In late April, she discovered she had cancer in her liver, lymph nodes, bone marrow and various spots on her bones. She was given weeks to live. Now the cancer has spread into her brain, and doctors still believe a tumor burst in her head Saturday, causing her seizures.

Gloria also has a tumor in her rib cage, near her left lung, which is causing a troublesome fluid buildup. And her chest pain may be from cancer trying to invade her heart.

Gloria's parents, Doug and Kristen, said they cried all morning and struggled with what to do. Then they believe they heard God sending them a message -- I will share the exact words after reviewing some audio tape in the morning -- and it comforted them.

They will not give up, unless they believe God is telling them to do so. And they have yet to hear those words. In fact, they've had some reaffirming moments lately. My eyes are dropping as I type, so I'm going to stay general for now and add more depth after getting some rest.

So the prayer session was an unyielding, emotional pleading for God to heal Gloria. It was the most powerful session I've ever attended.

Later this morning, I will share more insights from last night, but I just had to give some highlights before going to bed.

August 14

As promised, I want to tell more about last night's touching prayer session.

It was truly a sight to see about 30 people praying around Gloria. With the permission of Gloria's parents, we taped portions of it. Once audio is edited, we plan to make it available online, perhaps by tomorrow morning.

In the meantime, I'm going to give some highlights from last night.

-- Kristen shared that she heard God give her a message in Gloria's diction: "Give her to God and let Him do his thang."

Kristen was searching for what to do. When those words popped into her head, she was comforted. Gloria is a big "American Idol" fan, and she can do impressions of all the judges. Her Randy Jackson may be the funniest, and the way Kristen heard the words, "do his thang" sounded much like Gloria imitating Jackson.

To explain it very simply, Kristen took it to mean God was assuring her that Gloria will be just fine.

-- Kristen also read a passage from the Magnificat, a collection of spiritual writings that she reads every day. This just happened to be the selected reading for Monday:

"Let the Lord, God, show us what way we should take and what we should do. To God, the darkest the steps of the human heart are as clear as the page of a book lying open in the sunlight. He knows us through and through, and He loves us as deeply as He knows us. Rather than hide from Him, let us put our life in the hands that fashioned us and allow Him to lead us in the path of eternal life."

Said Kristen: "Just hearing that, it confirmed to us that God is still walking with us in this and that He's still guiding us. He's not abandoning us."

-- Jessica Morley, a senior-to-be at Kennedy High School in Burien, where Gloria's father teaches and coaches, revealed that she had a dream Saturday night.

"I had a dream that I was talking to a man, and I was explaining to him how frustrated I was that so many people are giving up on Gloria's miracle," Morley said. "He told me that I don't have to be like them. That I don't have to settle for an average faith.

"When I woke up in the morning, those words were ringing in my head, and it gave me a lot of comfort."

Back story on Morley: As an infant, she had neuroblastoma, but doctors found it early enough to save her. She's now in remission. Though the situations are different, the Strausses look at Morley as an inspiration.

-- Random quote from Gloria's father, Doug, talking about praying with conviction: "Like Shaq said, don't fake the funk on a nasty dunk."

Doug uses humor to get through all of this. But we warned everyone last night, "I'm not using humor to hide from the truth. I am being realistic."

-- And here's the moment that made me tear up: Watching Seattle University student Diana McKune, who has a brain cancer called intracranial germinoma, get out of a wheelchair in struggle, in pain, to get on her knees to pray at Gloria's bed.

McKune met Gloria a few years ago and has been taken by her story ever since.

It was an unbelievable night.

-- On a personal note, all of this is reminding me of the value of community. As I've tried to rise in journalism, I've gone from city to city, trying not to settle in too much because I don't want to be afraid to run to the next opportunity.

Because of some childhood experiences, I've also been against being part of a church community. I've preferred to study the Bible alone or in small groups and visit churches from time to time but not join one.

I became jaded because there are always negatives when a large number of people gather and try to do something together. Jealousy. Gossip. Back-stabbing. Those kinds of things.

This experience has taught me that there are church communities with different DNA, and I shouldn't be so stubborn. My faith has always been there, but my faith in others waned. Now that is starting to turn.

It's been an invaluable revelation.

It doesn't really influence how I write this series, but it may change my life in the very near future.

August 14

Gloria's parents are now restricting visitation, so that they can be with their daughter and think through the next step.

Doug, Gloria's father, said that doctors laid out all the possibilities during their meeting and told them to be very methodical while deciding what to do. When Gloria comes out of her medically induced coma, Doug said the first goal will be to remove the breathing tube from her mouth.

In clear terms, doctors told the parents to be prepared for anything -- if her heart stops, if she can't breathe on her own, etc. There is a sense of urgency, but the Strausses have been given 24 more hours to decide whether to leave her in this state or see if she can survive without the respirator.

I know it sounds repetitive talking about this slow process again and again, but it's impossible to overstate how crucial this next step is. Doctors told Gloria's parents Saturday that there was little they could do. They said death was inevitable. And they've even talked with the parents about not resuscitating Gloria.

(Please note: Those were just discussions about not resuscitating. As of now, doctors plan to try to bring Gloria back if there are complications after she's brought out of sedation.)

Gloria is living because a machine is helping her breathe. And her little heart might not be able to withstand the pain once they pull her out of this coma.

It has to be the toughest moment of the parents' lives.

According to Doug said, a doctor told them, "You have to be willing to live with whatever decisions you make."

So the family is taking time to think about nothing but Gloria. Doug said they'll do this for the next several hours.

In the meantime, I'm going to work on an entry that goes into more detail about last night's prayer session. Check back at about 4 p.m. for those highlights.

August 14.

Spoke with Kristen, Gloria's mother, a few minutes ago. Kristen said doctors will be meeting with her and her husband, Doug, within the next hour..

Gloria is waking up a little. She's still under heavy sedation, but the more her medication decreases, the more she will become lucid. .

Kristen said Gloria has squeezed her hand a few times. Gloria has also bitten her breathing tube because, as expected, she's uncomfortable with having the device in her mouth.

Kristen also said her breathing has become more labored, so Gloria needs the respirator much more than she did last night. Mom sounded particularly down when she delivered that news.

Right now, the parents are allowing a few more minutes of visitation, and then they plan to "shut it down." Of course, they planned to do the same Monday but never did because Gloria never came out of this medically induced coma.

Remember, when Gloria comes out of this, she likely will experience some of the toughest moments she's ever had during this four-year struggle.

Her parents have been praying for God to speak to them -- through Gloria's body -- about what to do. They're praying for a miracle, and they believe if God wants them to continue to do so, they will see some positive signs when Gloria comes out of her coma.

If her condition worsens, they might take that as God telling them to let Gloria go. As parents, they're protectors, and there's only so much suffering they will allow.

Today, they seek clarity on what to do.

It may happen -- or the wait may continue.

"God's time is different from our time," Doug said.

August 15

Let's hear from three more readers now.

It's so interesting to learn how many lives Gloria Strauss has affected and also how those who follow this story are handling Gloria being in the hospital.

The first e-mail is from Lisa Schmidt. She speaks for many as she tries to type out her emotions and find clarity on what this story means to her.

Here's Lisa.

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Hi Jerry.

I think what is so captivating about her story is the way the family has let us all in through your writing about their very personal and heartbreaking story. Many of us are all the same -- we are mothers, fathers, families, survivors, those who have lost family members and friends. I am captivated by the story because I am a mother, and because I wonder about God, life, loss and pain.

This story is what life is about. Life is not just the good stuff; it is all the stuff -- the suffering, the pain, the loss, the heartache. We wonder, "How would we ever go through it?" But of course, we have to, since facing our own death, and death of those we love most deeply, is the universal truth we must face.

And I think we can't imagine how we would/will go through it, so we read every word, look for the miracle, that reaffirms us that God is alive and will protect those we love from pain and suffering.

But really, can we pray for that? How can we pray for protection from something we all must face? It is of course, the universal truth, that life is suffering. We cannot spare ourselves and those we love from suffering. We want to protect our loved ones of course, especially our children, from suffering, but we can't. So, we pray for the miracle, that God is alive, and we look to restore our faith through the miracle.

Wait a minute -- what is the miracle? They happen every day, in small and profound ways. A miracle is the hard heart that becomes softened, through the story of a little girl who is a stranger, but who we all pray for. A miracle is opening up our eyes every day, alive, in this beautiful comfortable world, ready to see and touch and feel those we love. Another day of safety. Another day free from pain.

A miracle is how we can face the world each day, knowing that pain and suffering is something that we cannot free ourselves from. Suffering is of course all around us, and I think seeing this family's private story helps us figure that out. It captivates us.

Last year, my best friend died of cancer at age 47, leaving a husband, adult son and teen-age daughter behind. She lived in California, so I didn't get to spend much time with her. I was "called" to see her two weeks before she died, for our goodbyes. As heartbreaking as it was to see her go, I was lucky that I got my closure. She said to me, "I won't let you say goodbye, because I will never be gone. Part of me will always live inside you, and that will never go away. So I won't say goodbye, just so long." That is the true miracle, that once people are in our hearts, they can never leave.

Moving past the pain of the loss, I am often just left with soft, lovely, warm memories of how my friend changed my life through her friendship. How knowing her made me a better person. How being with her through her cancer journey changed me. I prayed for a miracle, to keep her alive. What I got instead was a different miracle -- a changed soul and spirit and outlook on the world. I miss my friend, but I am grateful for my miracle.

I wish everyone out there, who reads your story about this brave family and little girl, their own miracles from opening their hearts to let this story inside.

Lisa

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The next e-mail made my heart turn flips. It's so warm and caring and passionate. It comes from Rachel Byers, who is following Gloria while watching over her own daughter, Jenessa Nicole Byers (her nickname is Boey), at Doernbecher Children's Hospital in Portland.

Here is Rachel.

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Hi Jerry,

My name is Rachel Byers, the very proud and honored warrior mama to my amazing little warrior princess, Jenessa Nicole Byers. I'm typing this in my hospital room with tears in my eyes. My daughter and I have been following Gloria's story, and our entire family believes with the Strausses for their miracle.

Our daughter who is fighting a recurrence (was diagnosed in Jan. 2006 with rhabdomyosarcoma, a muscle cell cancer) prays for Gloria every day, even when she doesn't have enough strength to eat, drink or talk. Sometimes she'll just agree with me; we too are in the middle of our miracle.

We believe for Gloria and the manifestation of her healing. It's not about whether or not it's God's will to heal, God does not cause sickness and disease. It's about us believing in our hearts and the touch of faith that activates the healing. We have seen signs and wonders along the way during our grueling 18 months. We have literally been down on our knees crying out to God for Gloria's healing.

She reminds me so much of our daughter -- her strength, love for her God, unwavering faith, love for others, spunk, both are beautiful inside and out. Gloria and Boey are an inspiration and a testament to God's abounding love, mercy and grace. My daughter's motto is to NEVER GIVE UP. She wishes so badly she could visit Gloria and share her strength with her.

As a family going through the same thing, we are passionate about bringing awareness to pediatric cancer to bring us that much closer to a cure in the natural world. You are doing that by sharing their story with the world, for that we are forever grateful.

We feel so connected to them. We are right there going through it at the same time with the same unwavering faith and love for our awesome God. Please give them a hug for us when you can. Give Kristen a warrior mamma hug for me. Tell her it's from someone who cares and believes with her, and that it's from a mother's heart :)

Thank you and send the Strauss family all our love, and make sure they know we are all praying and BELIEVING with them. We will never give up until we are victorious!! Gloria will win!!

God Bless,

Rachel and Jenessa, aka Boey Byers

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And lastly, we have an e-mail from Sakara Remmu. She lost her 3-year-old son, Khabir, to neuroblastoma two years ago.

Here is Sakara.

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My son (Khabir) passed two years ago at Children's Hospital from complications of neuroblastoma. He was and is my heart, and his death was the most painful experience I have ever had, that his brother and sister have ever had. Thank you for telling Gloria's story. It is hard for me to read it, having gone through all of these steps and seeing what cancer can do to such a small child, but, it is important to tell nonetheless.

God Bless you,

Sakara Remmu

(Khabir Remmu 10-6-2001 -- 6-14-2005)

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I had an e-mail exchange today with a reader wanting to know why The Times has focused in on this family. I've answered that question in this journal before, so I won't go in great detail again.

But my brief explanation is that you should look at Gloria as a symbol for all who suffer. Don't isolate her; consider her a representative. Consider her a look into how children and families handle these situations.

It wasn't by design, but these e-mails show the spirit of that message.

August 15

A few notes:

-- There's one thing I haven't explained well enough. Gloria Strauss is relying almost exclusively on the breathing device right now. She has been since yesterday afternoon.

That's a troubling sign because she had a long period in which she was doing most of the breathing on her own.

But, once again, a neurologist said this morning that her brain is functioning well.

-- Two Seahawks -- quarterback Matt Hasselbeck and defensive lineman Craig Terrill -- visited a few hours ago. Terrill's wife, Rachel, also came. They didn't get to see Gloria (her parents have limited visitation today), but they spoke with and encouraged Gloria's mother, Kristen. They also gave her a card.

Kristen was touched that they cared so much.

The Terrills met Gloria last February in Wisconsin. Gloria was part of former Seahawk Grant Wistrom's Circle of Friends trip. The trip gives pediatric cancer patients and pro football players an opportunity to get away and have fun together. They've been following her journey ever since.

-- On Monday, legendary Seattle high school coach Frank Ahern, who is friends with Gloria's father, visited.

During his career, Ahern coached basketball, cross country and track. He was part of more than 20 state-title teams as either a head or assistant coach.

-- Gloria's father, Doug, is finally resting. He's been asleep for at least four hours, which is the best rest he's gotten since Gloria was admitted to the hospital Saturday, five days ago.

-- As I mentioned previously, today is an important holy day for Catholics -- the Feast of the Assumption of Mary. So Father Michael Batterberry, the campus minister at Kennedy High School in Burien, is here to lead the family through Mass at 6 p.m.

-- In the intensive care unit's lobby, family and friends are watching the one Strauss family video that was dubbed before a thief broke into their van and stole their recordings last month.

On this video, Gloria is dancing to Michael Jackson's song "The Way You Make Me Feel."

-- And, finally, in case you haven't noticed, photographer Steve Ringman and our online staff have completed an audio slideshow chronicling the family's Monday night prayer session. It is up on the Web site now. It's a very heart-affecting material.

August 15

I spoke with Gloria Strauss' mother, Kristen, a few minutes ago.

A neurologist tested Gloria's brain function this morning and gave a good report. The doctor said the tumor in her brain isn't troublesome right now. All the tests showed that Gloria is reacting properly. Obviously, her parents take comfort in this news.

Kristen said she slept about eight hours, and her dizziness has passed. She went to Mass this morning because today is the Feast of the Assumption of Mary. This is a Holy Day of Obligation for Catholics.

Her husband, Doug, is fatigued and having some problems with his elbow, but he's doing OK.

This day has begun well, but the parents still long for Gloria to awaken.

August 15

I wanted to share some reader e-mails about Gloria Strauss this morning. I can't even fathom how many people care about this little girl. While we're waiting for news, I plan to post thoughts people are having throughout the day.

If you'd like to send a personal story, e-mail me at jbrewer@seattletimes.com. I'll do another mailbag-type posting in the late afternoon if there are enough e-mails.

(Thank you to the numerous people who have sent messages encouraging me and telling how much what I'm doing matters to them. I appreciate those thoughts, as well as the e-mails making sure that I'm doing OK. I'm sincerely moved, and trust me: I'm fine. Sitting and typing isn't that draining.)

Here's a message from Gayle Kneeland, who reveals what knowing about Gloria has done for her life.

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Dear Mr. Brewer,

The Strausses are looking for a miracle, and I wish they could know how their story, their faith, and Gloria's joy have brought a miracle into my life.

I now do not let a day get by without praising God, showing my children love, taking a moment to appreciate now, and laughing. I call my miracle "Gloria's Gift."

God commands us to do just two things -- to love Him with all our heart body mind and soul, and to love others as we love ourselves. Well, it used to be that I did not know how to love me or anyone else very well, then after reading your articles something changed.

There are no words for it really. I just suddenly, quietly, knew, really knew God. That is my miracle, "Gloria's Gift." She shared her faith and in doing so has shown me how to love.

I am just a pebble in a big pond, but the ripples of my miracle extend far and wide, and I am sure there are hundreds more pebbles just like me out there. Think about it.

The miracle is here.

God bless you,

Gayle Kneeland

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The incredible thing about this journey with Gloria is how her story has captured the attention of people, regardless of what they believe. Here's a message from Heidi Suárez. Mind you, because of what she believes and because of her profession, she doesn't think Gloria will make it.

But it's important to hear what Heidi has learned from all of this and the admiration she has for the Strausses despite the fact that she's not religious.

Let's face it: There are people, even those who pray, who don't want Gloria to suffer anymore. Just like I haven't judged the Strausses for praying for a miracle, I won't judge those who share dissimilar beliefs.

Here's Heidi.

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I have found myself becoming a faithful follower of your column/journal about Gloria.

The etches made on your journey will forever be worn on your heart. Sometimes, they will really hurt and other times, they will just remind you. I can't imagine anyone walking away from this story untouched. How could they?

Working in the medical field, I have seen too many heartbreaking stories involving children. And, as a mother of two incredible little boys, nothing scares me more than losing them. How do you go on?

As a non-religious person, I admire the depth of this family's faith and devotion to their religion. I believe faith is what so many people cling to in times of need. What else is there, really?

Up until today, I hadn't felt sad about this story, however, knowing that her end is near, I am disheartened on one level and joyous on another. Joyous because I know her suffering will soon come to an end. Disheartened because her family's suffering will only get worse.

I wish everyone involved in this tragedy the ability to stay united and help each other heal and remember a courageous little girl and her amazing family and faith community. They are not to be forgotten easily.

Be peaceful in this journey,

Heidi M. Suárez

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And the final e-mail in this batch is from Julie Carrick, who met Gloria a few years ago and continues to be moved. This provides a glimpse of how much reach Gloria has.

Here's Julie.

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I am Julie Carrick, a Catholic Recording Artist who lives in Scottsdale, AZ. I had the privilege of meeting Gloria a few years ago and as I learned of her condition, I brought a first-class relic of St. Philomena to the St. Philomena church and was humbled beyond words as I thought that I would help lead this church community to pray for one of their own in, somehow, a deeper way.

During the concert at the church, Gloria, without hesitation, held the reliquary that holds the small piece of St. Philomena's bone, and one by one people came forward to pray with and for Gloria.

As the concert was ending, I went to Gloria and asked her if she felt anything after the opportunity to pray with so many people for her healing and with the most precious smile she simply said, "It was really nice to pray for all their needs. I didn't get tired at all. Thank you for letting me pray for them with St. Philomena."

I was overwhelmed to realize that this beautiful child had been praying not for her own healing as I had suggested, but instead had prayed with each person who had come forward, for that 45-minute period of time, for their needs.

I know they were praying for her healing, but she was not at all thinking of her need, but of theirs. This child is truly filled with God's grace.

We will begin a novena here in Scottsdale, AZ, and I am sending a note to every person in our ministry database, to flood heaven with her intention and especially through the intercession of St. Philomena and Nicky Mailliard (a cancer patient from Scottsdale who died in 2005). For Gloria, and for her entire family, we ask our Lord Jesus to shower His richest blessing and fullness of healing.

Julie Carrick

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For many people, the toughest part about Gloria's current condition is that they believe she's done way more for them than they can do for her.

You can view it that way, but you can also view it like this: Look at what can be accomplished if you, like Gloria, approach living in a selfless manner.

It's hard to imagine an 11-year-old teaching adults how to live, but it's obvious Gloria has done just that.

August 16

Here are four more e-mails from readers following Gloria Strauss' story.

The first is from Sarna Becker who speaks eloquently about "every Christian's struggle."

Here's Sarna.

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Dear Jerry,

When I first started reading the series of articles, I was most impressed by Kristen's courage in declaring the miracle of healing she felt God had told her would be worked in her daughter. Making this declaration is a risk. It does not appear to me that the Strausses demanded that God would work in this way, just that Kristen received a clear message indicating He would.

The risk in declaring this miracle is that if the healing does not occur, it calls into question the ability of the faithful to accurately discern God's voice. For people who don't ascribe to a faith, perhaps it only confirms their reasons for unbelief. For people (like myself) who describe themselves as people of faith, it causes me to examine my understanding of how God communicates. In other words, is my perception of God's voice trustworthy?

I have never received a message of the specific nature that Kristen received, so my perception has not been tested in the same way. What I find admirable from a faith perspective is Kristen's willingness to place her own communication with God in public view, at the risk of either being justified (if the miracle occurs) or mistaken (if it does not).

I believe this exemplifies the true nature of a relationship with God. Kristen has never questioned the ability of God to work, but has honestly wrestled with how the present circumstances reconcile with God's messages to her.

I believe this is at the heart of every Christian's struggle. I know it has encouraged me to examine the implications of what I believe, and I hope their example will lead to communities of Christians who are committed to living at this level of vulnerability.

Sarna Becker

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The second e-mail comes from Matt Moeller. He attends the same church as Gloria and her family.

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Jerry -

I find myself constantly clicking on the refresh button of your web journal, just hoping that you will report Gloria has opened her eyes. I was with my father on his last weeks of life, and I remember being alone by his side praying for one more chat with him.

I can't imagine the pain of Kristen and Doug, as they hope for the same from such a precious little flower. I asked god for a trade, to give Gloria the health I enjoy and give me her disease. The beautiful thing is that most of us would do the same if we could.

My family remembers seeing Gloria in church over the years, and she always looked so joyful and happy, despite all her physical pain. Although we don't know her, we feel we know her so well. There are things our finite minds can't explain, but that little girl's courage has solidified my faith and trust in the Christ. Thank you, Gloria, for helping to reinforce to us that every day is a gift, every breath of life is golden, and that love conquers all.

Gloria -You are in our constant prayers and no matter what happens, we will never forget you.

- Matt Moeller

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Remember my entry this morning about dreams of Gloria waking up from this coma? I had one. Gloria's parents, Doug and Kristen, did, too. So did Kelley Masterson, a close family friend.

Well, include reader Marie Hackenberg on that list, too.

Here's Marie.

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Hi Jerry.

I just read your entry about your dream about Gloria walking. I had to tell you that I had a very similar dream a few days ago. I believe it has to be God telling us to keep believing in the miracle. That it is coming. He will heal Gloria! I can't wait!

Marie Hackenberg

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And, finally, we have Judy Turner. She writes about learning to trust in God again.

Here's Judy.

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Jerry,

When I first saw your column, I didn't want to read it. Having recently lost a very close uncle to pancreatic cancer (from diagnosis to death was 10 months), just glancing at your column made me ill. I immediately became angry at God, again.

I first started not believing in God when my long-term marriage ended. I was very heavily involved in my church and could not understand how God could let that happen to me, to my uncle, and now this little girl. But something has changed in me from reading your column. I found myself in church last Sunday. The first time in over 9 years.

I prayed for Gloria, my uncle's wife, myself and I found myself asking God to forgive me for hating him. Even though I still don't understand why all of this happens, and I'm not sure where I'm at in my life with religion, your column has inspired me to at least try to believe again.

Reading about this family's faith and their ability to hang on to that faith, when faced with one of the most gut-wrenching things that can happen in life -- the illness and possible death of a child -- is truly an inspiration to me.

Many of us have lost numerous family members and close friends to all forms of cancer. It's never a pretty story, and one most people shy away from because it's just too painful and in reality, the outcome is usually not good. But through Gloria, I've seen a side of the life of cancer I had not realized existed. To put your faith in something, and accept the outcome of that, regardless, is a tremendous lesson for all of us to learn from.

We all have our trials and tribulations, and I tend to not put anyone's in a category of higher importance than someone else's. There are indeed thousands of people going through exactly what this family is going through today. But I just wanted to thank you for covering a story that is bound to change many lives. Mine included.

Judy Turner

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August 16

Gloria Strauss' parents, Doug and Kristen, are in a meeting with doctors right now. Their goal is to cut through some of the medical talk and gain more clarity on both what's happening with Gloria right now and exactly why she suffered those seizures in the first place. They seek more thorough explanations than they've been given.

That's about all they want me to relay. It's a complicated situation, but they need this understanding to figure out what to do.

Doug saw some reactions from Gloria today that he believes are positive. For instance, Gloria fidgeted when nurses gave her some eye drops. She also has smacked her lips a few times, Doug says.

Doug and Kristen know their little girl best, and they need the medical staff to believe in Gloria as much as they do. Otherwise, the parents will remain skeptical about her treatment.

It's a little bit of a faith vs. medicine disagreement. That was bound to happen.

I also shared my dream with Doug and Kristen. And you know what? They had dreams about Gloria walking, too, this morning.

Kristen's dream was quite vivid. People, even children, were fighting all around. She felt like they were battling for treasure. Children were stabbing each other with swords.

Then Gloria awoke and rose.

"Honey, you're breathing tube," Kristen told her daughter in the dream.

Gloria yanked the tube out of her mouth.

"Mom, I'm fine," she said.

And then everyone stopped fighting.

August 16

Gloria Strauss' condition remains the same this morning.

To recap her situation, Gloria, who has suffered from a cancer called neuroblastoma for four years, was put into a medically induced coma Saturday. Early that morning, the 11-year-old started breathing heavy, and her parents couldn't keep her pain under control. So they called an ambulance.

Gloria started having seizures. Her heart stopped, but the medical staff at Children's Hospital & Regional Medical Center revived her.

Then Gloria was put into this coma, mostly to stop her seizures. She also has a respirator helping her breathe. She has alternated between periods of breathing mostly on her own and needing the machine to do most of her breathing. Right now, the machine is doing most of the work.

Doctors have reduced all of the medication that put Gloria into this coma, but she has not come out of it. Her liver is full of cancer, and her kidneys aren't functioning perfectly, so the drugs aren't passing through her body well enough to wake her. Doctors have said there's a possibility she might never open her eyes.

Her parents are still praying for the healing miracle that Gloria's mother, Kristen, believed God told her would happen even before Gloria was diagnosed four years ago.

Kristen heard God say Gloria would have an incurable disease, and she says God left her with this: "When I heal her, I will change the lives of many."

Once again, throughout the day, we'll allow readers to express their thoughts in this journal, too. If you'd like to participate, you are welcome to e-mail me at jbrewer@seattletimes.com.

We'll end this entry with a message from Nicole Rae. Nicole is a graduate of Kennedy High School in Burien, where Gloria's father, Doug, teaches and coaches boys' basketball. Nicole met Gloria at the beginning of her cancer fight, and it changed her life.

Here's Nicole.

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Jerry,

I just recently graduated from Pacific Lutheran University with a BA. I was in the John F. Kennedy Memorial High School class of 2003.

I am not a Catholic, and if you asked any of my teachers at Kennedy, I was very much against the idea of religion. I was a senior when Gloria was diagnosed with cancer. To me, cancer was just something that happened, and there was nothing anyone could do to stop it.

I was sitting in Mrs. Ellis' math class taking notes when the door opened. I think it must have been a month or two after the man on the other end of the intercom told us Gloria had cancer. I looked at the door, and this small girl walked through.

It was apparent she was wearing a wig. Her eyes were sunken into her face, and Mrs. Ellis stopped talking and said loudly, "Good Afternoon Gloria!!"

This was my first experience looking at someone with cancer. I think I just watched her. It was hard not to. I remember it very vividly. She stopped walking in front of me as her father went to talk to Mrs. Ellis, and she looked at me. She smiled at me.

I smiled back, all the time wanting to cry. I cried when I got to my car after school. I sat there, and I cried. Was it fair for Gloria to suffer like that? No. I sat in my car and I cried and Jerry ... I prayed. For someone who would sit in the back row at Mass at Kennedy and for someone who thought they had lost their faith in God, I prayed.

I still don't go to Church, but after spending four years at a Lutheran college, I feel that I have come into my own when it comes to faith.

I do pray that Gloria will get better, or if anything, that God releases her suffering. It is the same as I pray for my boyfriend's mother, who is battling her own cancer.

Even when I talk to him about his mother, it is the same upbeat attitude of, "What will happen, will happen. Just pray."

Thank you,

Nicole Rae

August 16

I'm going to the hospital to check on Gloria Strauss as soon as I finish this journal entry. I wanted to share two things real quick.

First, I had a dream about Gloria this morning. She woke up, and after an initial bout with severe pain, she was able get out of bed and walk. By the end of the dream, she was running around inside a building, hand in hand with her mother, while people ran behind her.

It was quite uplifting. I'm not sure what it means, but I think it had something to do with believing in the impossible and continuing to remember how many followers Gloria has.

I have to cover whatever happens to Gloria, but I'm not afraid to say I want the miracle to happen. Badly. I pray for her, just like I pray for my own family. This whole journal has been about removing the belief that you can cover a sick child and remain detached. That's so false, always has been for reporters covering these types of stories. We were sensitive human beings long before we were reporters. We must write stories with an open mind and a balanced perspective, but we are not robots. Only a robot could watch an 11-year-old girl suffer and not be affected.

I also had a conversation with another woman in the intensive care waiting room last night. Her granddaughter had just come out of heart surgery. The surgery was supposed to last about four hours and major bleeding was supposed to occur, but it only took the doctors two hours and the little girl didn't bleed uncontrollably.

The woman told me the story of her grandchild. Supposed to die at birth. Endured three heart surgeries. Still alive.

"She's made it all the way to 11 years old," the woman said.

Just like Gloria.

Throughout our conversation, the woman kept talking about her family's faith.

"With God, nothing is impossible."

"We're praying for God to work through the doctors and keep her alive."

"She's a miracle."

Just like Gloria.

All people who suffer gracefully are canonized to a certain extent. It can become clichéd. But in most cases, it's so true.

That's because these people are the manifestation of whatever we believe. It's just unfortunate that we often fail to recognize that these lessons are everywhere, not just in the hospital.

Sometimes, I think if we took more time to "get it," we wouldn't be shocked into the right mindset by having to watch someone suffer.

August 16

Gloria Strauss remained in a coma as Wednesday ended.

As of now, I have little to update on her medical condition. I left Children's Hospital for the night, and she was still in the same state. Her father, Doug, was still sleeping in her room, too.

Today was a very calm day. Both of Gloria's parents took more time to relax and recharge. As previously reported, a neurologist visited Gloria and left with a positive report, but Doug and Kristen, Gloria's mother, didn't have their usual extended meeting with Gloria's oncologist.

There could be many more days like this. Or, as we're all sleeping, Gloria could rise. There is no roadmap for this. It will happen as it's supposed to happen.

The Strausses didn't have a prayer session tonight in Gloria's room because Gloria has a roommate for now. They had hoped to have Mass in her room, but out of respect for the other patient, they moved it to the chapel.

On a side note, I have the answer to one question that might be dancing in your heads: How are the other six Strauss children?

It's one thing Doug and Kristen worry about often. But the kids are doing OK.

Alissa, 13, remains the glue. She's as steady as ever. She's worked hard to keep the other kids organized and focused. And one of Alissa's close friends, Amy Fantozzi, has been around for support.

Maria, 9, seems to be seeking some attention, and her parents have been trying to give it to her. Maria spent the night with her family in the hospital Tuesday night. She also had a funny conversation with Seahawks quarterback Matt Hasselbeck when he visited about Disney's "High School Musical" movies. Hasselbeck has three young children, including two girls, so he knows all about that pop culture phenomenon. Maria is probably one of the few people in the Puget Sound region who would meet Hasselbeck and not even mention football.

(Doug and Kristen have been letting different children stay with them on different nights. They can't all stay because there's not enough space. While Gloria has been hospitalized, her parents have had their children staying with either trusted friends or grandparents Diane and Steve Strauss.)

Joe, 6, is hilarious. He's making everyone laugh in the waiting room.

Anthony, 5, has probably the most energy of the Strauss boys. His hyperactivity is reminiscent of his father. He's been pretty vocal about Gloria's situation, offering play by play of what happened Saturday before Gloria was taken to the hospital. "It was scary," he says, but two minutes later, he'll run off, laughing and yelling.

Sam, 3, has been mostly quiet. But he's often that way. He seems to really like one-on-one attention, and family and friends are giving him as much as he wants.

Vincent, 10 months, requires the most care. He seems to be comfortable despite the situation. But whenever he's reunited with Mom and Dad, he looks giddy.

August 17

The day ended with Gloria Strauss still unable to open her eyes. Her parents are spending time with the children tonight -- Doug with the boys and Kristen with the girls.

Part 7 of "A Prayer for Gloria" is complete. I hope people will be moved by this piece. This series has always been, primarily, a story of one family's faith. Now that it has really been tested, the Strausses faith has only increased.

The one difficult part with this piece was including an even heavier dose of Gloria's medical situation. Faith and medicine seemed to collide in this story more than ever. But that's indicative of we're at right now. I think it's still a very hopeful story, which reflects the family's emotions.

As I've been doing, I'd like to share some e-mails tonight and tomorrow morning. We'll end this journey with one from Libby Seidel.

Libby shares a very intimate message about her family's faith while struggling through numerous cancer cases.

Here's Libby.

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I, like many, have been following the amazing story of the Strauss family. The strength that this whole family has shown is amazing. I also believe that miracles can happen. I also believe that their faith is what will get them through these trying times. I applaud both you and the whole Strauss family for sharing their story.

I lost a 3-year-old nephew to cancer 31 years ago. Ten years later, another nephew was diagnosed with the same cancer. He survived. I am happy to say he has been cancer free for 15 years and will turn 21 this month.

We never stopped believing that he would survive even when we had the past bad experience with the same cancer. Our faith taught us to pray and to believe that God has a specific plan for all of us. There is no doubt in my mind that Gloria was put on this earth to be a teacher to us all. She is just amazing! As I read the updates, I get tears and am choked up. Then I see Gloria's picture, or read something she wrote, and I am reminded that this is not over yet! I will continue to keep Gloria and all the Strauss family in my prayers. Keep fighting Gloria!

Libby Seidel

August 17

We've decided to run Part 7 of the "A Prayer for Gloria" series in Saturday's newspaper. I'm writing the piece right now. So the updates won't be as thorough as previous ones. But I will continue to write in this journal throughout the day.

In the meantime, you are again welcome to share your thoughts about Gloria Strauss. E-mail me at jbrewer@seattletimes.com if you have something on your mind. Also, please let me know if you'd like your thoughts put in this journal or kept private. All comments are appreciated, even if you want them to stay between us.

Gloria's parents, Doug and Kristen Strauss, were having their daily meeting with doctors last I heard. If anything important comes from that meeting, I'll be sure to update you.

August 17

I spoke with Gloria Strauss' father, Doug, this morning, and he provided the latest update.

Gloria's condition remains the same. We've been saying Gloria is in a medically induced coma. Let's clarify exactly what's happening.

When Gloria entered Children's Hospital on Saturday, she was put under this heavy sedation because of seizures. Since then, doctors have weaned her off that medication, but because her liver is full of cancer and because her kidneys aren't functioning 100 percent, some of the medicine has not left her system. Therefore, she's still in this deep sleep.

Doctors are closely monitoring her brain, lungs, heart and kidneys. The tumor in her brain, which they discovered Saturday, is not harming her brain right now. She has a tumor in her rib cage, which could be affecting her lungs. Gloria has a breathing device helping her breathe. Sometimes, she does most of the work. Other time the machine carries the load.

"When Kristen and I talk to her -- this is pretty cool -- she breathes on her own," Doug says.

Gloria's heart stopped Saturday, but she was resuscitated, and it is OK right now. Some of her kidney levels are high, which indicates they aren't functioning properly, but her levels aren't alarming high. If they get alarmingly high, Gloria's parents would have to decide whether or not to put her on dialysis.

To put things simply, Gloria's not doing well, but doctors have told the family she's still healthy enough to allow the family to wait in hopes she will wake up.

If Gloria opens her eyes, her parents will immediately ask doctors to pull out her breathing tube. They hope she can breathe on her own.

AUG. 17

I took some time for myself last night after another powerful prayer session with the Strausses.

I needed to get away. I had a beer with a friend. We talked about Gloria Strauss, talked about silly stuff, and then I sat at home, trying to clear my mind.

Gloria's condition has not changed. Her parents' will to let her fight through this medically induced coma remains, too.

No matter what the doctors say, Doug and Kristen Strauss just don't feel Gloria's time has arrived. They see enough positive signs in her organs to believe she still has life within her. And they have not felt God is telling them to let her go.

The parents did gather their six other children and clearly explain the situation to them. Doug said they told their kids to focus on the present, not the future. Doug and Kristen were honest; they told the kids Gloria could die. But unless they get a sign that tells them to think differently, they will continue to give Gloria a chance to wake up.

Thursday was a weird day for me. I found myself trapped between being a reporter and a human being. The human side of me won. Allow me to explain.

For much of the day, there were whispers among the immediate family. It all occurred after Doug and Kristen emerged from a meeting with doctors. It felt like they were preparing for the end.

The part of me that's an ultra-competitive reporter wanted to break the story. Then I realized, "What's there to break?" This series is about understanding a family's struggle, not about fighting for a headline.

So I just relaxed, and that's why you didn't see a post from me after the 5 p.m. hour. I didn't want to speculate on what was happening. And then, as I learned from others what might be going on, I didn't want to run with just a portion of the news and send readers into a tizzy.

If I had given in and leaped, I would've misled everyone. But I've never lost sight of the point here: to share a delicate story with proper care and attention.

I'm not saying any of this for applause. I'm trying to relate a personal mental struggle. Everyone following this situation closely has something heavy on the mind every day.

One final note: Gloria's youngest sister, 9-year-old Maria, had a dream that Gloria walked, too. She drew a picture and wrote a cute story about it.

Alissa, 13, the oldest sister, read the story during Thursday night's prayer gathering. All who attended were moved.

August 18, 1:46 PM

Gloria Strauss' condition remains the same this afternoon. She is still in the medically induced coma.

I've heard from many readers today, so we have much to discuss. I will start with more reader reactions. Later this afternoon, I will explain the thinking behind today's newspaper story -- Part 7 of "A Prayer for Gloria." For people new to this journal, it's something I've done throughout the series.

Let's get to some e-mails from people thinking about Gloria.

The first comes from a woman who'd like to be identified only as Irene T. She reacts with great insight about some of the e-mails others have sent. But mostly, Irene gives her thoughts on what we are all considering: What if Gloria's miracle is for us and not for her?

Here's Irene.

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Dear Jerry,

I just read your posting from Wednesday at 5:27 p.m., in which you shared e-mails from some readers.

Sarna mentioned that Kristen had declared "the miracle of healing she felt God had told her would be worked in her daughter." What an immense amount of faith in declaring that for all to hear!

People are looking for the miracle to occur in Gloria. What if Gloria's miracle is not so much in her as because of her?

For example, another reader whose e-mail you shared yesterday, Judy, mentioned that she was angry at God. Yet she said that she found herself praying, and that this story is changing her life. I'm sure that there are many others in the region who, like Judy, have been so moved by Gloria's life that there is healing beginning to occur in their own lives.

In my own life, I have found encouragement from reading about Gloria. While the bumps in my road are significantly smaller than the Strauss family's, somehow I am finding that there has been a change in my heart, in how I look at things and my response to challenges. Reading your journal and articles is helping me to find healing in my own life. There is a hope now that I didn't have not too long ago.

Healing is not always a physical thing. The healing of the heart is greater than the healing of the body, for the healing of the heart can lead to the healing of the body. It is not the body that endures, but the spirit.

I believe that Gloria's miracle will be much greater than her body.

~ Irene

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The next reader doesn't want his/her name published, but the message is an important one. Like this reader, many people don't know exactly what to pray for or how to know what God wants. It's a prevalent religious dilemma.

Tom Curran, the Strauss family friend who has run a Catholic ministry for nearly two decades, talks about this a lot. He mostly says people should pray for God to come close and speak to them. And then, he believes, clarity will come. He says people shouldn't pray for "something" as much as they pray for "someone."

When he and the Strausses pray together, they ask for what they want -- a miracle. But first, they ask for God to guide them.

Here's "Anonymous."

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Dear Jerry,

Like everyone else, I keep hoping that Gloria will get her miracle, but I'm feeling more and more pessimistic. Part of the reason is that you wrote that her heart stopped on Saturday. I found myself thinking that if she hadn't been at a hospital, she would have died. It seemed that God might have been ready to take her if not for human intervention. Or was that intervention part of God's plan?

Having been raised Catholic, I believe in miracles, but I'm also a very skeptical person by nature. At some level, I've been wondering why we need to pray for a miracle if God said he would heal her. Don't we trust Him enough? I don't mean this in a sarcastic or nasty way. I wish I could pray with the intensity that so many people do, but I have too many questions.

One thing I've been curious about is how Gloria experienced God speaking to her. I didn't find mention of that in your series and I wondered if you had intentionally left that out.

When I check for news (which is several times a day), I'm finding myself more fearful that I'll see the headline I dread; yet, I continue to pray in my own way and be inspired by the many amazing people that you've written about in your series.

Many thanks for the wonderful work you've done.

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To answer that question from Anonymous, Gloria doesn't have - or at least hasn't shared -- a time of God speaking to her like her mother does. We must remember she's only 11. But she's talked about feeling God's presence and trusting in the miracle. I'd advise people to go back and listen to the audio link of Gloria "in her own words."

At the end of it, she says with conviction, "I'm going to be a miracle."

August 18, 4:02 PM

In Part 7 of "A Prayer for Gloria" in Saturday's newspaper, we depict how Gloria's family and friends are handling the waiting game.

It was important to look at this situation from many different angles: Mom and Dad, the six other children, extended family and friends.

Once again, this series is about a faithful journey through illness. You see everyone tested like never before, but then you see how they fail to give up.

The hardest part, as always, is where to start. I wanted to capture the situation and the message in one paragraph. The image of the crucifix on Gloria's chest is something that has stayed with me since I first saw her in the hospital a week ago.

So I told myself, "Hey, silly, if you're so taken by that image, don't you think readers would be, too?" After the beginning, I knew how the story should be written.

It occurs to me that, as the series has progressed, Gloria's voice has gotten weaker and weaker in it. That was not what I originally intended, but now it almost seems symbolic of her struggle. She has an overwhelmingly joyous personality, and having little opportunity to show signs of that left a huge void in this story. It's the same void that everyone who loves her feels.

(Quick aside: Two weeks ago, when Steve Ringman and I were planning where to go next in this series, Gloria was on her feet, feeling good, bouncing on her trampoline and spending the night at a friend's house. So we talked about doing our first extended interview in a while with Gloria and getting her thoughts on a multitude of things. Regardless of what angle we took, we were going to make the next piece heavy with Gloria's voice. But, sadly, her condition took this shocking turn.)

I felt the need to put a sprinkle of Gloria's personality in this piece, and fortunately, I remembered the night when family and friends gathered around Jennifer Vertetis' laptop to watch an old video of Gloria.

That helped remind us who Gloria is. And for those who may have picked up the story just recently, it was as good a glimpse of her as I could give.

The heart of the story, as usual, deals with faith. I wanted to show how the Strauss family's faith is guiding them through this situation. I also wanted to show how blindly they are walking and how much they are seeking guidance on what to do.

I show those things mostly through Gloria's parents, Doug and Kristen.

And then I tried to use all these dreams people are having about Gloria. The meaning of a dream is quite unexplainable. You can take it however you want it. It can be a sign. It can be because something is heavy on your mind.

If you notice the writing as I refer to those dreams, then you see I offer no explanations. I just let them drift. You really have no control over your dreams. And everyone involved has no control over this situation.

But recognize how everyone is looking for signs, clinging to signs. That's all they can do.

August 18, 4:52 PM

Gloria's parents, Doug and Kristen Strauss, have some promising news to share.

Gloria is more responsive than she has been in a week. She is still under heavy sedation, but it appears at least a small portion of the medication that induced her coma is passing through her system.

Gloria has clenched her hands a few times today. She also has been biting at the breathing tube in her mouth. When a nurse asked Gloria to stop the biting, Gloria stopped.

It's evidence that Gloria can hear what's going on around her.

Her vitals remain good. And Doug relayed that doctors believe her liver is functioning OK despite the fact that it is full of cancer.

To recap her situation, Gloria, who has suffered from neuroblastoma for four years, was put into a medically induced coma Saturday (Aug. 11). That morning, the 11-year-old started breathing heavy, and her parents couldn't keep her pain under control. So they called an ambulance. Gloria started having seizures. Her heart stopped, but the medical staff at Children's Hospital & Regional Medical Center revived her.

Then Gloria was put into this coma, mostly to stop her seizures. She also has a ventilator helping her breathe.

Doctors have reduced all of the medication that put Gloria into this coma, but she has not come out of it. Her liver is full of cancer, and her kidneys aren't functioning perfectly, so the drugs aren't passing through her body well enough to wake her. Doctors have said there's a possibility she might never open her eyes.

Today, the family has a little more hope that the doctors might be wrong.

August 18, 7:11 PM

A few notes:

• When nurses rolled over Gloria Strauss to change her bed this afternoon, she grimaced. It's another good sign of responsiveness, but it makes her parents wonder about her level of pain. The medical staff upped Gloria's dosage of pain medicine a little. She's still on a drug called Dilaudid.

• For the second straight night, Gloria's parents decided not to have a full-scale prayer service in Gloria's room. Doug and Kristen Strauss have been trying to spend as much time as possible with their six other children.

• The Strauss kids go to St. Philomena School, and that community will be praying for Gloria and her family on Sunday at the St. Philomena Church. Mass is at 5:30 p.m., and afterward those who attend will pray the Rosary. Everyone is invited to.

The address of the church is:
1790 S. 222nd St.
Des Moines, WA 98198

• And, finally, the dreams continue. Anthony Strauss, Gloria's 5-year-old brother, told his father this morning that he dreamed Gloria was walking.

August 18, 10:05 PM

We've been following Gloria Strauss' hospital stay for a full week now. I wanted to end the night reflecting on this time.

Part of me feels like I just got the call that Gloria was suffering seizures yesterday. And part of me feels like it's been a month.

It's crazy. Ever since Gloria closed her eyes, my eyes have been opened to remarkable displays of human compassion. I knew many people cared about Gloria deeply, but I didn't understand how many. It seems as if her supporters multiply by the minute.

It's been a sad, frustrating time, but it's been special watching a community — our community — come together, hearts exposed.

Like readers have shared, this is truly a miracle. Because we're all individuals, trapped in our own worlds, and it's hard for people to focus on one thing. The world is so vast. Our interests are so varied.

So many things are uniting us. For some, the motivation is this family's testimony of faith. For others, it's the all-too-personal subject of cancer, a disease that has affected all of our lives in some manner.

Or maybe you're taken by the way the Strauss family shows its love. Or you disagree with their beliefs, but respect the strength of the Strausses' convictions. Or you just want to learn how people handle suffering.

Primarily, however, you've been taken by Gloria, this tough, charismatic little girl.

I'm amazed. This has been the most revealing week of my journalistic career. Some people have said I've done my best work, and to that I say thank you, but I wish I were off doing average work because it would mean Gloria wasn't suffering.

It seems like this will be a long process, and I hope readers remain focused on this story. Though Gloria is closer to death than she's ever been, we've been talking about life this past week. How to live. How to cherish every breath. How to create a legacy.

Without question, regardless of what happens to Gloria, her legacy is secure. She didn't need The Seattle Times to accomplish this, either. She already had established it by privately touching the lives of people in her Federal Way community and beyond. It turns out our newspaper discovered this movement quite late.

We'll follow it until the end, but in truth, this story never ends.

Unfortunately, there will always be sick people who need this community's love. The religious and secular worlds will always collide. We will always need to be provoked into activating our compassion, too.

And we will always need hope in trying times.

It's been quite a week. I don't like that it started with an 11-year-old falling into a medically induced coma, but we're all better for following this struggle.

Now, if only Gloria could get better.

August 19, 10:45 a.m.

Gloria Strauss' father, Doug, awoke this morning and touched his daughter.

"Gloria, good morning, baby!" he said.

And Gloria opened her eyes.

Dad saw his daughter's blue eyes for the first time in eight days.

"This is such a blessing," Doug said over the phone a few minutes ago.

Doug said he doesn't know exactly what it means. He and his wife, Kristen, will be speaking with a doctor later this morning. But they've been praying for several days now for smaller miracles, and they most wanted Gloria to open her eyes.

She's still very groggy, Doug says. She's not talking. Her eyes are still closed most of the time, but she lifts her eyelids from time to time. Doug also said Gloria is breathing mostly on her own.

"We still have a long ways to go, and if she fully wakes up, it could be a really hard time for her," Doug said.

Gloria has been in a medically induced coma for eight days, and doctors said if she ever came out of it, they would have to work quickly to manage her pain, make sure she doesn't suffer anymore seizures and remove the breathing tube from her mouth.

Gloria's parents have longed to see their 11-year-old girl open her eyes. Then they hope she will be able to communicate with them.

This is an encouraging first step, a "mini-miracle," Doug said.

"She's just kind of opening and closing them now," Doug said. "But by the end of the day, she could have them open all the time."

August 19, 11:45 a.m.

We're still waiting for an explanation from a doctor on what's happening with Gloria. Gloria opened her eyes this morning, fluttering in and out. .

She's still groggy, can't talk and is far from in the clear, but this is the small miracle Gloria's family has been praying for the past few days.

In the meantime, we'll move to some reader reactions. The response to Gloria's battle with cancer remains as passionate as it was when she entered the hospital eight days ago.

Remember, if you'd like to share your thoughts, you are welcome to e-mail me at jbrewer@seattletimes.com. I welcome both thoughts wanted to be kept private and those you'd like to share with readers of this journal.

A reminder: There is a special prayer session for Gloria today at St. Philomena Church in Des Moines. Mass begins at 5:30 p.m., and afterward there will be a praying of the Rosary. Everyone is invited to attend.

The address of the church is:

1790 S. 222nd St.
Des Moines, WA 98198

The first e-mail comes from Kathy Pinch. She talks about what she has learned from following the Strauss family's journey.

Here's Kathy.

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Jerry,

I received an e-mail from a friend of a friend of the Strausses asking for prayer for Gloria. I don't know the family myself, but have been captivated by their story, as you have so gently shared it, and by their faith.

I am praying for the miracle that Kristen believes God promised her. I do not doubt that she heard God's voice, as I have myself a few times in my short walk with Him. It seems to me at this point, that if Gloria survives it can only be by the hand of God.

I have personally not experienced anything like what the Strauss family is going through, but their struggle has reminded me of several very important things. First of all, children are a gift from the Lord. They are given to us by Him, for us to take care of, but they belong to Him. He lays out a plan for their life, however long or short that may be. He decides who their parents will be, and what kind of personality they will have. He decides when they will be born, and when they will die. God is sovereign, and His will is what we should desire.

Gloria's story has also reminded me that every day is a gift. Every day I have with my children is a gift, and how often have I taken that gift for granted? I'm ashamed to say, too often. What if God decided to take one of my children home today? Would I be content with how I spent my time with them, or would I have regrets? I want to treat my children, and each day I have with them, as wonderful and precious gifts from my Creator.

I thank the Strauss family for allowing you to share Gloria with us. She has touched so many lives, I am sure, through her struggles. God knows that, and I can tell by your writing that she has touched your life, as well. We will continue to pray for them, and I am also praying for you, Jerry. Your life, I believe, will be forever changed by this experience, and I pray you will find God's peace through it all.

All God's blessings,

Kathy Pinch

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Next, we have Herbert Erdmenger. He's writing this e-mail more to me, and he's very succinct with his message. But pay attention to where he's writing from; it shows how long Gloria's reach has become.

Here's Herbert.

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Jerry:

Thank you so much for what you have done for little Gloria and her family. For that, I will forever be thankful to you.

Also, thank you for keeping all of us updated. If it hadn't been because of you, so many thousands of us would have never heard about Gloria's fight against that merciless disease. Thank you so much.

Herbert Erdmenger

Guatemala, Guatemala

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Whenever Gloria's father, Doug, has people question why the family has been so willing to share this story, he says something to the effect of, "Come on, man, do you see how many people have gotten closer to God or learned something because of Gloria? And you want us to stop?"

Now, we'll hear from Janice. She just wants to let the Strausses know that she feels a deep connection to them.

Here's Janice.

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Gloria and Family,

I personally don't know you or your family, but I'm telling you that I feel like part of your family now, as I've been following your story since June. This story has touched my life in ways I could never imagine . FAITH, HOPE, PEACE AND LOVE.

Many have talked about a MIRACLE. I believe that MIRACLES have been happening all along this journey. I pray daily for everyone involved in this story: Gloria, her family, friends, doctors, nurses, other medical staff, and anyone else who hears her story. God bless you all!

Praying for you and your family today and always,

Janice

August 19, 2:50 p.m.

The medical explanation for Gloria Strauss opening her eyes is she's showing yet another sign of responsiveness.

On Saturday, Gloria moved and clenched her hands and smacked her lips. Today, she is doing all those things, and her eyes are opening from time to time. Also, Gloria is doing most of the breathing herself. Her ventilator is only providing minor assistance.

Gloria is running a fever, however, which is a concern. But the nurses are working to lower her body temperature.

Over the past hour, no one has seen her eyes completely open. Her eyelids aren't fully closed, however, and family members say they can see her eyes moving.

That's another sign, the medical staff believes, that Gloria is aware that something is happening around her, and she's trying to figure out what's up.

Gloria's father, Doug, is limiting visitation so that only the most familiar voices are talking to Gloria. He wants her as relaxed as possible.

Doug cautioned this morning that this could still be a long process. He hopes his daughter will be lucid by sometime today, but in the eight days Gloria has been in the hospital, improvement has been slow and incremental.

August 19, 7:29 p.m.

A few notes:

-- Gloria Strauss' condition remains the same. But her older sister, Alissa, is the latest family member to see Gloria open her eyes briefly.

Alissa said she entered Gloria's room this afternoon, greeted her, and Gloria reacted by opening her eyes. So Alissa and her parents, Doug and Kristen, have seen this "small miracle."

She is still considered in a medically induced coma, but the medical staff believes she is becoming more responsive each day.

The best way I can describe Gloria's current state is that she seems like she's drained. A few days ago, it seemed like she was barely there, but now it feels like she has the will -- but not the energy -- to awake.

Doctors have said for days that all of Gloria's vitals are OK. So if the medicines that sedated her can pass through her system and if she can breathe on her own, she will be able to come out of this coma.

She's still a long way from getting to that point, however.

-- We have more dreams from close friends. Lori Rosellini, a lifelong friend of Kristen's, reports that her daughters, Alexa and Caitlyn, have had dreams of Gloria, too.

Stephanie Squires, a Seattle University student, says she had a dream last night that she was sitting with Gloria when she opened her eyes, sat up and looked around.

If nothing else, Gloria is all over the minds of everyone who loves her.

-- Striving for some kind of normalcy, Doug and Kristen are letting their six other children spend tonight at their Federal Way home. Kristen's grandfather, Pat Trimberger, is staying with them, as well as Kristen's brother, Paul Trimberger (Gloria's godfather) and his wife, Andrea.

For the past week, the kids have been displaced. They've handled shuffling from house to house and being watched by various friends remarkably well. The past two nights, the kids have been at a hotel with one of their parents while the other parent stayed with Gloria.

Doug and Kristen don't want their children to feel ignored, and they've been giving them extra attention.

August 19, 2:50 p.m.

The medical explanation for Gloria Strauss opening her eyes is she's showing yet another sign of responsiveness.

On Saturday, Gloria moved and clenched her hands and smacked her lips. Today, she is doing all those things, and her eyes are opening from time to time. Also, Gloria is doing most of the breathing herself. Her ventilator is only providing minor assistance.

Gloria is running a fever, however, which is a concern. But the nurses are working to lower her body temperature.

Over the past hour, no one has seen her eyes completely open. Her eyelids aren't fully closed, however, and family members say they can see her eyes moving.

That's another sign, the medical staff believes, that Gloria is aware that something is happening around her, and she's trying to figure out what's up.

Gloria's father, Doug, is limiting visitation so that only the most familiar voices are talking to Gloria. He wants her as relaxed as possible.

Doug cautioned this morning that this could still be a long process. He hopes his daughter will be lucid by sometime today, but in the eight days Gloria has been in the hospital, improvement has been slow and incremental.

August 20, 10:47 a.m.

I spoke with Gloria Strauss' father, Doug, earlier this morning, and he said Gloria showed even more signs of responsiveness throughout the night.

Much of it was discomfort and agitation, and so Gloria's parents are encouraged but worried about her level of pain. Gloria Strauss looked at her mother, Kristen, this morning and mouthed the memorable words.

Gloria's parents will meet with doctors later this morning and get an update.

We'll end this entry with some more reader response. These all come from youths. We've heard from many adults, but here are the insights of people who are closer to Gloria's peer group.

The first is from Emily Walters. She writes about how Gloria has gone from being the subject of a story to a real focus in her life.

Here's Emily.

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Dear Jerry,

I first came across the stories about Gloria when I was doing a vocabulary project. It really touched me how supportive everyone was. I believe that miracles can happen, especially in Gloria's case. Gloria has been in my prayers ever since the first story.

Last week, I went on a mission trip. It was called ONE Week junior high, and I came to be good friends with the participants from St. Vincent. I never connected them with Gloria until we heard the news.

The guys from St. Vincent went and prayed the rosary for her straight away. That night my friends, Lana and Stasia, and I prayed the rosary. We all cried when we said the last prayers for her. The next morning, we got together as a group and prayed for her. Her struggle has strengthened my faith, and brought me to know that anything can happen as long as you believe it can.

She is an amazing girl and I will never forget her stories. She will continue to be in my prayers. Thank you for all the information on Gloria and her family. It has changed my life in incredible ways.

Emily Walters

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Next is Claire. She writes about how much Gloria has impacted her.

Here's Claire.

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My name is Claire. I am 12 years old. I first found out about Gloria from my cousin, who was one of Doug Strauss' students at Kennedy High. I just thought she was this one girl who had cancer. Then I read her article and was blown away. I just recently got braces, and my mouth aches a lot of times during the day. Whenever I am about to whine about my soar mouth, I think of Gloria.

Sometimes I find myself thinking, "Why am I complaining about my sore mouth, when someone like Gloria is suffering from neuroblastoma?"

I have found myself re-thinking my actions lately. Gloria is special, partly because she really makes you think about life. She is truly my inspiration. She is my role model. My sisters and I put $100 into her benevolent fund. It was sitting in a piggy bank in my room, waiting for good use. I believe God will help Gloria. I'll continue to pray for her.

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And, finally, we have Emily Gilbert. She writes about feeling conflicted over how to pray for Gloria — until she attended a prayer service last week. Note that she references an e-mail in an Aug. 18 journal entry from "Anonymous."

To provide some context, "Anonymous" wrote about caring for Gloria but not knowing exactly what to pray for, which is a common dilemma.

Here's Emily.

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I read your article and then the blog and read Anonymous's response. I read that and that is exactly how I was feeling, until I went to the prayer service in Gloria's ICU room on Thursday night.

The moment I entered her room, I was filled with a complete sense of peace. The love, faith, and fire that filled that room were indescribable. I immediately fell to my knees to just "praise God," if you will. Throughout the prayer service I just felt God saying to me, "Emily, don't you for a second doubt what I can do. I am bigger than the air you breathe. I am bigger than Gloria's cancer, and with me, nothing is impossible."

Before I went to the prayer service, I was trying to understand God's plan for Gloria. After the prayer service, instead of understanding, I decided to simply trust. Because our divine God has a plan BIGGER than we can ever imagine and when we try to understand His plan, we are in a sense becoming our own God. Instead of trying to control our lives and figure out everything in store for us, wouldn't it be so much easier if we just let Go and let God?

Last night, I was reading my Bible and I read the story of Jesus raising Lazarus from the dead. Lazarus had been DECLARED dead, and Jesus did not show up to his tomb until four days after. He was greeted by all his weeping friends who said to Him, "Lord. If you would have come earlier, even four days ago, we would not be weeping and you could have healed him. But you are TOO LATE." God's time is different then ours, and He showed his friends, Lazarus, and us that by simply saying, "Lazarus, come out." And Lazarus came out.

Some may question God in reading about Gloria and might say "Lord, how could you let this happen to such an innocent little girl? What did she or her family do to deserve this?" But God allowed His own beloved son to suffer and die on a cross.

Being in Gloria's ICU room made me realize that God can do whatever He wants, whenever He wants. It's not up to me to decide what God's plan is going to be. Jesus, our Lord and Savior, died, but on the third day he rose ... and so will Gloria.

Emily Gilbert

August 20, 4:09 p.m.

Gloria Strauss looked at her mother, Kristen, this morning and mouthed the memorable words.

"I love you," Gloria said.

It's the moment the Strauss family has longed for since Gloria, who is battling a cancer called neuroblastoma, entered the hospital nine days ago. Because of seizures, the 11-year-old was put in a medically induced coma on Aug. 11.

According to Gloria's father, Doug, doctors have declared Gloria is out of her coma. The next step is to get her off the ventilator at some point. That process will be slow, Doug says.

Gloria has a fluid buildup on her left lung, which is causing some of her breathing problems. The medical staff hopes to get that under control, possibly by draining that fluid.

Because Gloria appears to be doing so well, her parents don't want to rush anything.

"One thing, throughout this whole battle, that we've learned is patience," Doug says.

After a meeting with doctors this afternoon, the father walked into his daughter's room and witnessed Gloria mouth "I love you" to him, too. (Because of the ventilator, Gloria is not really speaking so much as trying to speak.)

Gloria also responded to her two sisters, Alissa and Maria.

Maria said Gloria blew her a kiss.

Gloria was first diagnosed with neuroblastoma four years ago. In April, Dr. Julie Park, Gloria's oncologist, told the family that cancer had invaded Gloria's liver, lymph nodes, bones and bone marrow, and that she had only weeks to live.

When she entered the hospital on Aug. 11, doctors learned Gloria had a brain tumor. A neurologist has closely monitored that tumor and doesn't believe it is affecting Gloria's brain function.

But the medical staff is worried about seizures now that Gloria is out of this coma. But as of now, she is doing fine.

August 21, 10:50 a.m.

Gloria Strauss' gradual improvement continues this morning. Her father, Doug, said his girl kissed him early this morning.

"I got a real kiss," he says. "She extended her head and lips."

Doug keeps joking that he's in his "hospital groove" now, meaning things are operating as he thinks they should.

To recap Gloria's situation, she was put into a medically induced coma 10 days ago because of seizures. On Monday, doctors declared her out of this coma. Chances of coming out of the coma any earlier were impacted by her liver and kidney problems. The medication remained in her system, and doctors did caution the family that she might never come out of it.

Her family, which has always believed Gloria would receive a healing miracle from God, has been praying for small miracles, and they believe they've received a few.

On Sunday, Gloria opened her eyes for the first time since Aug. 11. On Monday, she mouthed the words "I love you" to her parents and blew a kiss at her younger sister, Maria. Though she's still fatigued, she's slowly becoming more active.

The next phase of her recovery involves taking her off the ventilator. Although she is initiating her breathing, her parents don't want to take her breathing tube out just yet for fear of a setback.

The ventilator makes Gloria uncomfortable, but she has relaxed. Gloria has a tumor in her rib cage that has caused a fluid buildup around her left lung. Doctors are contemplating how to deal with that problem.

The medical staff will keep monitoring her breathing, and if it gets stronger, then the time will come to see if Gloria can breathe on her own.

A few notes:

-- Correction: In a post on Sunday, I mentioned Pat Trimberger as Kristen's grandfather. I meant Gloria's grandfather. Pat and Vicki Trimberger are Kristen's parents.

-- A Strauss family friend, Caitlyn Rosellini, fractured her back last week. When Gloria was first admitted to the hospital, she visited every day, but now she must limit her mobility.

"I would give anything to see Gloria," says Caitlyn, who will be a high school freshman in a few weeks.

The Strausses would like people praying for Gloria to pray for Caitlyn, too.

August 21, 3:52 p.m.

Gloria passed another test this afternoon.

Her ventilator was turned down for 20 minutes to see how she'd react to breathing on her own. She breathed without complications.

The breathing tube was not removed during this test, and there are no plans to remove it as of now , said her father, Doug.

"They call the process a 'sprint,' " Doug said of how doctors refer to taking Gloria off the ventilator. "This was just a walk to the mailbox and back."

Most likely, Doug said, Gloria will be tested for a longer period tomorrow. The hope is she'll continue to respond well, and if so, her body eventually will be strong enough to do all the breathing. Then the ventilator can be removed.

"There are two issues," Doug said. "She has to be conscious enough to breathe on her own, and she has to be strong enough."

Over the past two days, Gloria has made tremendous strides with consciousness. She still sleeps most of the time, but when she is awake, she is becoming more responsive each day.

August 21, 8:09 p.m.

Readers continue to respond heavily to Gloria's story. We'll get to another batch of e-mails after sharing a few notes.

-- Gloria's mother, Kristen, was touched this afternoon to see her daughter mouthing the Lord's Prayer. Kristen and some friends were praying in her room when Gloria surprised them by joining.

-- Gloria's father, Doug, has discovered that he still has one of the family's precious home videos. In July, someone broke into the family's van and stole several items, including Doug's video recorder and a library of recordings.

All was not stolen, however. When Doug asked a friend to bring over his new recorder, the friend brought a really old one by mistake. Then Doug looked in that recorder's bag and found a tape from 2003, when Gloria was first diagnosed with cancer. That recording includes a crucial period in Gloria's life -- when she had her stem-cell transplant.

Doug had taped every step of Gloria's journey and thought he lost it all after the theft.

Now let's get to your e-mails.

We'll start with one that figures to be controversial. It goes against much of the reaction mentioned in this journal, but I've welcomed all reaction, so I'm not going to deny someone who wants to be heard, as long as they're respectful.

This e-mailer wants to remain anonymous. The e-mailer disagrees with Strauss family's decision to fight for Gloria's life. The e-mailer comes from the medical world.

Here's "Anonymous."

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Dear Mr. Brewer:

I have been reading your updates on Gloria every day. You've done a very good job, to say the least. I am a pediatric nurse. While I respect the religious beliefs of her parents and their community, I have to admit that part of me thinks that their hanging on and continuing to resuscitate her (I think I read that her heart stopped last weekend?) is somewhat cruel and self-serving.

Losing people, especially children, is devastating. However, I don't believe that we should extend their suffering to delay our own suffering that will begin with their loss; sometimes, the best thing is to let people go. Keeping them here because we're not ready to let them go doesn't serve them well, and it can prolong their suffering in many cases. I suspect I'm not the only person that feels this way about this case -- that she should not be resuscitated should her heart stops again. It confuses me that her parents are devout Catholics, yet when her heart stopped they chose to bring her back -- what if her heart stopping was a "sign" that God was taking her to heaven?

I think Gloria's pain should be treated and that she should be made as comfortable as possible, and let happen what will.

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Let's discuss this e-mail briefly. Generally speaking, it's a valid viewpoint; no one should be made to suffer.

But from what I've learned about Doug and Kristen in six months is that they would never hold onto Gloria just because they're unwilling to let go. They believe God will heal Gloria, but they're very realistic parents.

They know, unless Gloria's condition changes, this is the point where neuroblastoma patients die. They're going to listen to their hearts, honor what they believe are their daughter's wishes and pray for God to guide them. That's how they do things.

And they say they know Gloria is not ready to go. She said, "Mommy, I don't want to die" before her heart stopped temporarily. And the parents believe the fight in Gloria -- which her improvement this week is showcasing -- proves her will to live.

Gloria warned her parent's months ago that she felt "like it was going to get worse before it gets better."

I included this e-mail because it brings up a dilemma in this story: faith vs. medicine. As a reporter, I try to let them both have their say.

We talk a lot about the faith side, but it's important to hear the medical side, too. It's a totally different way of thinking.

The next e-mail comes from Suzie Q. She's reflecting on what Gloria's story has meant to her.

Here's Suzie.

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I am following Gloria closely and think of her often. The entire Strauss family has found a place in my heart.

Before "meeting" the Strauss family through this story, I had many of my prayers answered. I am not a church-goer , but I do have faith in God and pray often. Prior to following Gloria's journey, most of my prayers were selfish, in that they were for things I wanted to happen for me. Now not only do I pray fervently for Gloria's miracle, but I find myself praying for others who are hurting or in need of God's help, rather than just for my own things.

I believed from the start that Gloria would affect the lives of many and in reading this journal I see that it is true. She certainly has affected my life. This is surely a part of Gloria's miracle, too.

I believed from the start that Gloria would affect the lives of many and in reading this journal I see that it is true. She certainly has affected my life. This is surely a part of Gloria's Miracle, too.

I want Doug and Kristen to know that they are in my thoughts and prayers, too. God is going to give them the strength to continue to carry on. What a wonderful family this is. As a person who just adores children, I would love to be able to know this family.

I so much want God to hold this entire family in His hands and His heart and to bring them the Miracle they and all of us are praying for. Whatever happens, God and Gloria will decide what, when and how. God will do his "thing" so Gloria can do hers.

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And, finally, we have Deb Christian. Gloria's story stirs some tough memories for Deb.

Here's Deb.

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Jerry,

I have followed the story of Gloria from the beginning when I read that she had neuroblastoma. My story of a sweet girl with the same cancer goes back 12 years. I was a young teacher who met a second-grade student with a bright smile and something very special about her. When I met her she had been battling for three years and was in remission.

Full head of hair, chubby cheeks and an enormous smile, we all hoped and prayed that her days of cancer were through. I came to love her and her family and when the cancer returned, there was nowhere else that I was called to be but by their side whenever needed. Your stories and words have taken me back to that bedside and the treasured moments with my little friend. I was with her when she died. I learned more about life in those 2 years than in my 27 previous ones.

Elizabeth Kubbler Ross (an authority on death and dying) believes that God gives terminal children a lifetime of wisdom and love and that was evident with Missy and seems to be true of Gloria. I rode the highs and lows, the joys and the fears and learned what it was like to love a child in and beyond the circumstances. Missy's miracle did not come as we had prayed for, but the friendships, the intimacy and the love that was shared changed me and prepared me for the life ahead.

I had and have no comprehension of why a loving God would take a sweet 9-year-old girl from this earth, yet I praised him for the intimate moments we had had, the bonds that I developed with others who loved her and for the blessing of her life.

This past year I once again journeyed through the final earthly days of someone dear to me. My best friend battled and lost to the horrible disease of melanoma. I once again prayed for the miracle, prayed for the pain to go away, prayed that her children would not grow up without a mother and prayed that I would not have to lose another precious friend. Along the way and looking back, I see that God answered many of these prayers, just not with the answers that I had in mind. The miracle came in the transformation of lives by the story of the brave battle, in the form of people returning to a faith they had discarded, in the form of a community of people that did now know each other coming together and supporting a friend in need.

I believe that Gloria's family is listening to God speak to them. I hope and continue to pray that they get the miracle they need. I also believe that what He has said to her parents is already coming true. In her moments of deepest need and illness, through Gloria, he has begun the healing of people's souls, their faith and their relationships.

Thank you for your role in sharing this miraculous life. I know that your journey has been a hard one, but a blessing that you would not trade. Thank you for taking me back to those painful and beautiful moments that can only be found when you share the intimacy of life and death.

Blessings,

Deb Christian

August 22, 11:10 a.m.

Gloria Strauss' condition remains stable this morning. She's still slowly improving in terms of responsiveness and strength.

This is Gloria's 11th day at Children's Hospital & Regional Medical Center. She was admitted on Aug. 11 after a bout of seizures. She was put in a medically induced coma and attached to a ventilator that day, but she came out of the coma Monday.

The goal is now to get her off the ventilator. On Tuesday, the medical staff tested Gloria's breathing by turning the machine down so she could breathe on her own. Gloria did this successfully for 20 minutes. The same test will likely be performed today, said Gloria's father, Doug.

In the meantime, the family is trying to transition into some kind of normalcy. Doug and Kristen have been keeping their six other children away from the hospital for longer periods, and the parents are trying to alternate night shifts so that one can be well rested each day.

In actuality, neither gets much sleep, but they do seem more refreshed and relaxed.

August 22, 3:09 p.m.

Today has been a slow day for Gloria. Her condition remains the same, so much so that her mother, Kristen, has been able to sleep much of this afternoon.

The family had a day similar to this one last week. Not every day is full of significant progress or news. The Strausses realize this will be a lengthy journey to try to get Gloria back. Today, the parents are trying to get their own strength back.

We still plan on providing another medical update later, but in the meantime, we'll return to some reader reactions to this story.

The first comes from Kathleen Shaner. She's been trying to find the right words to express what Gloria's story means to her. Now she's found them.

Here's Kathleen.

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Jerry,

I have contemplated writing to you for weeks now. I contemplated because I was not confident that my words would come out clearly. I want to make sure that Kristen and Doug hear what I say and understand. I want to make sure they understand the difference they have made in my life. The decision they made to share an extremely personal situation has changed me forever.

I am Catholic, about the same age as both of them and have a 2-year-old daughter. My husband and I pray alone and with our baby and believe me, she knows the name Gloria Strauss! I believe I am a good mother but am certain that there is room for improvement. If my daughter is having a meltdown or not listening to what I am saying I now pause and ask, "What would Kristen and Doug do in this situation?"

It may seem odd to ask a question about people I have never met, but that is the impact they have on me. They are faithful, patient and so full of love. I want to be that kind of parent. I want to have the unyielding faith in God that they have. Once again, their decision to go public with their story has made a miracle happen in me. I am changing, and I believe it is for the better.

Thank you Kristen and Doug for sharing your truly amazing family with all of us. Thank you for showing what being a mom, dad, husband and wife means. Thank you for giving me a lesson in what is important in life.

Peace and Blessings,

Kathleen Shaner

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Next, we have the first of two anonymous e-mailers. "Anonymous 1" is sharing a story from Monday night.

Here's "Anonymous 1".

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Dear Jerry,

I didn't even know about Gloria until last night at around 8. I entered my bedroom and my husband, who would normally have changed into his "around the house" clothing was on our bed fully dressed. I asked if he was going somewhere and he said, "Yes, I'm going to church to pray for a sick little girl."

Our 3-year-old had a fever last night, and I thought he meant her. That is when he told me about Gloria and her current battle. Since then, I have read all of your articles on her and her family and am deeply moved by their faith. Gloria and her family will be in our prayers and I pray that the miracle, whatever that may be, happens for them. Thank you for writing about the Strauss family and their deep faith. In doing so I am sure you have deepened the faith of many families, including my own.

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And, finally, we have "Anonymous 2," who provides a different kind of religious viewpoint. Because Gloria and her family are Catholics, we've focused mostly on that religious discipline. This e-mail provides the view of a Buddhist.

Here's "Anonymous 2".

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Jerry,

I, like the Strausses, believe in God. I simply believe in a different way. I am a Pure Land Buddhist--Pure Land Buddhism also promotes belief in rebirth and enlightenment.

Personally, I sincerely believe that there is one God, for lack of a more general/politically correct term, over all things, and that each person interprets the presence of God differently. Even an atheist who has appreciated a sunrise, for example, has experienced God.

I had to write today because of a dream I had last night about Gloria.

She was healthy, smiling, laughing and waving as she floated in a large body of sparkling, clear blue water. She seemed relaxed and carefree. She climbed out of the water and ran around with her siblings. There was aughing and screaming and all the joy of childhood play.

It is my sincere hope for this brave little girl that she gets to experience such peace and levity again.

She has inspired many and touched deeply. She and her family and friends have endured much that she might serve as a lesson on how to love those around you and truly experience life.

Thank you, Jerry, for your heartfelt narrative; thank you, Strausses, family and friends, for reminding us all what it is to believe and to love; and thank you, Gloria, so much, for teaching us all what it is to hope and to live.

-Anonymous

August 22, 8:30 p.m.

Diane Strauss, Gloria's grandmother, shared a touching story.

During a visit this afternoon, Gloria grabbed her grandmother's hand and guided it toward her head to show Diane that she wanted her hair stroked.

Gloria has always loved Diane's touch.

"Oh, it was just wonderful," Diane said.

Gloria and Diane enjoy a special connection because they both have battled cancer. Four months before Gloria learned she had neuroblastoma, Grandma discovered she had breast cancer.

Grandma received her final treatment of chemotherapy on the same day Gloria received her first. They wound up being bald at the same time, and they took a picture together.

Diane understands the dangers of cancer as well as anyone. Her father died of cancer, and her mother survived a cancer scare. Grandma believes Gloria will receive a healing miracle as strongly as the rest of the family.

Diane said she's been encouraged to see Gloria's improvement over the past few days. Gloria came out of her medically induced coma Monday, and her body is steadily getting stronger.

Her condition is still serious, she still is breathing with the help of a ventilator, and this is still the point where most children with neuroblastoma die. But Gloria's family members have some hope. Their spirits continued to rise today.

"She's so much more awake today," Diane said. "It's nice to see."

August 23, 1:05 p.m.

While we've been following Gloria Strauss' story, a few of the same questions consistently come up. So I'll take time now to answer a few of these frequent inquiries in case you're wondering the same thing.

-- Is there a fund to help the Strauss family?

A fund has been set up to help the family at Washington Mutual Bank called the Gloria Strauss Benevolent Fund. You can visit any Washington Mutual branch, say you want to contribute, and someone will be able to assist you.

-- How is Gloria able to mouth words while she's on a ventilator?

Gloria has a plastic breathing tube down her mouth, and it helps force air into her lungs when she needs it. It hinders her ability to speak, but you can still see her lips, and when she tries to talk, her parents can understand what she's saying. Most of the time, however, Gloria communicates through nodding or shaking her head.

-- Gloria's family and friends are praying for a healing miracle, but do they realize the miracle might be something else?

Yes, they all do. They believe Gloria has suffered to bring people closer to God, and they've noticed how many people have been inspired by the sharing of this story. They consider that a miracle.

They consider it a miracle that Gloria has outlived her prognosis, too. Four years ago, after she had a stem-cell transplant that didn't stop the cancer, Gloria was told might have anywhere from three months to three years to live. She's lived beyond the most hopeful scenario.

And in April, after she learned the neuroblastoma had spread dramatically, she was told she could die in a month. She's lived four more months. The Strausses consider that a miracle, too.

They also find the community's support miraculous, too. They never imagined this many people would care so deeply about their little girl.

-- With Gloria's cancer and her mother's multiple sclerosis, why has the family had seven children?

Gloria's parents, Doug and Kristen, say they are open to life. Many Catholic families are large; it's just what they believe.

Doug and Kristen don't want to put limitations on life. Kristen cautions that she had five children and was pregnant with the sixth (Sam) when the family learned Gloria had cancer. The seventh child, 10-month-old Vincent, was born during a period in which Gloria was mostly stable.

For 2 ½ years, Gloria's cancer was resting in her body, and earlier this year, she discovered it was starting to grow again.

-- Why has The Seattle Times focused so much on this girl when there are tons of sick children? Why is Gloria so special?

We're not saying that Gloria is more important than any one else who is sick. All ill people deserve attention, compassion and love.

Think of Gloria as representative of all children struggling with disease. Think of her also as a face that brings more awareness to neuroblastoma.

You must also consider how you unique it is that the Strausses are so open in sharing their religious beliefs and how their faith guides them through this process.

It's a tale of illness, but it's mostly a story about faith.

If there are other questions you'd like answered, feel free to e-mail me at jbrewer@seattletimes.com.

August 23, 3:30 p.m.

Gloria 's father, Doug Strauss , believes his daughter is strong enough to be taken off the ventilator, and the family is currently exploring that possibility.

Exactly when this will occur is still being determined, but Doug said it could be as early as tonight. He said Gloria has been breathing mostly on her own, with the ventilator turned down, since about 8:45 this morning.

At about 5 a.m. today, Gloria mouthed to her father, "I want my miracle."

They were having a conversation about her wishes, and she was responding mostly by nodding her head and moving her lips.

Doug asked his daughter if she wanted to go to heaven right now. Gloria shook her head no.

From this exchange, Doug said he learned just how uncomfortable Gloria is with the breathing device and how determined she is to breathe by herself.

He told Gloria to give him time to evaluate how she's doing and think over the decision with his wife, Kristen. They could still decide that Gloria isn't ready. They also are exploring what doctors can do -- after they take Gloria off the ventilator -- to support her if she stopped breathing on her own.

"She's focused," Doug said of his daughter. "She's a veteran. She's been through so much. She's in control. That's what I'm most proud of right now."

Gloria has been improving gradually this week. On Monday, she came out of her medically induced coma. For the past five days, Gloria has become more responsive. She is still tired much of the day .

August 23, 11:45 p.m.

Gloria Strauss was not taken off her ventilator tonight. Her parents decided to wait until Friday to make that move.

Doug and Kristen Strauss spent most of Thursday exploring what to do. They still believe Gloria is strong enough to breathe on her own. They tested her breathing all day, with the ventilator turned down, and her parents said she had no problems.

So the next step, one that could take her out of intensive care, seems imminent. Doug said he and Kristen understand the dangers, and there would be a plan in place on what to do if Gloria can't handle breathing on her own.

When Gloria has her ventilator removed, it will be the climax of an impressive week of improvement for the 11-year-old. On Monday, Gloria, who was diagnosed with a childhood cancer called neuroblastoma four years ago, came out of a medically induced coma. Over the course of this week, she has become more responsive.

Her family has marveled at her will to live.

August 24, 4:17 p.m.

We're still waiting for Gloria to be taken off the ventilator today. The plan remains the same, but the exact time is to be determined. Gloria's parents, Doug and Kristen Strauss, are running some errands. When they are finished, their day will be clear, and they can focus again on this next step.

If Gloria has trouble breathing on her own, her parents will ask doctors to resuscitate her. They're also still asking questions about how the medical staff can monitor her breathing when she's off the ventilator.

In the meantime, we'll go to some reader reactions. The first comes from Cheryl, who sent a quick note about how she felt after learning Gloria came out of her medically induced coma Monday.

Here's Cheryl.

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Jerry,

So many times I've sat down to write to you about Gloria, and couldn't get my arms around all that I wanted to say. However, your recent journal entry made that easier this time. To read that Gloria is officially out of her coma, and to hear that her first words to family are "I love you" just brings tears to my eyes. This is what this is all about — love. The great love this family and their friends have for each other, and the great love they have for their Lord and savior.

Regards, Cheryl

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Next, we have Bonnie Campbell. She has run the Web site www.ovca.net since 2000. It's a site dedicated to the survivors of ovarian cancer, as well as their family, friends and caregivers. They all work together to bring awareness about the disease.

Here's Bonnie.

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Thank you for sharing Gloria — and her miracle.

Nowadays when I go to the web to read the Times, it is news of Gloria I look for. Tears fall. Yet I know I'm not alone. There are many others rallying together — praying, meditating, chanting, singing — each as their own tradition calls.

Why?

Because Gloria is someone special — pure in heart, with an inner strength that belies her 11 years. Special in that she brings the best out in those around her — near and far. She's reminded us to think and see what truly matters in life. It's not the things we so often focus upon — work, possessions, power. What matters in life is the connectedness and oneness that comes with community, the connections we feel with one another, the natural world, and the supernatural world — our "god," whatever we may call him (or her).

When I read of the dreams of Gloria's family and friends, they strike me as full of possibility. But, as with anything, they can be interpreted in different ways. Literally one might see the miracle fulfilled as Gloria healed physically, the fighting stopping, the disease waning.

Another interpretation may be that truly Gloria is healed by leaving a piece of her spirit with so many of those of us touched by her presence. The healing being a myriad of changes wrought in hearts beyond perhaps her wildest imagination. Perhaps the miracle is before us, in the simplicity of life itself, not in the form we might wish it to be, but in one far more important — the miracles of hope, love, and laughter — sharing these and acknowledging the beauty of the spirit of a young girl, a "dancing queen."

With peace, prayers, and possibility,

Sincerely, Bonnie Campbell

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And the final e-mail is from Nancy Jaenicke. She provides the story of another family's courageous battle with cancer.

Here's Nancy.

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I wanted to share this true story about another Catholic family who dealt with cancer and what evolved. This family had six children and their 3-year-old was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer. After many treatments and hospitalizations and many prayers, Andrew was called home by Our Lord on Dec. 5, 1995.

After midnight on Dec. 5, 1996, the first anniversary of Andrew's return to heaven, his mother, Judy, went into labor and within hours delivered two healthy twin boys, Austin and Aaron. Now there are seven children in this lovely and faith-filled family. When God seems to close a door, He also opens another.

Nancy Jaenicke

August 24, 8:14 p.m.

Gloria's father, Doug Strauss, sent word a few minutes ago that his daughter has been taken off the ventilator.

He couldn't provide many details. Naturally, he wanted to get back to watching Gloria and making sure she's doing OK. But she's breathing all by herself right now and doing well. I'll write more after I get the chance to speak at length with the family.

This exubation marks the climax of a week of improvement for Gloria, an 11-year-old who is battling a cancer called neuroblastoma. She's been in the hospital for 13 days. She was admitted to Children's Hospital & Regional Medical Center on Aug. 11 because of seizures and intense pain.

On Monday, Gloria came out of a medically induced coma, and she has continued improving ever since.

I had mentioned last week that there were fears that Gloria's level of pain would be overwhelming once she came out of the coma. Gloria is still experiencing some discomfort, but her pain is manageable right now.

August 24, 10:24 p.m.

Gloria has been off the ventilator for more than three hours. She has had no problems so far.

"Her throat is really sore, as you might imagine," said her father, Doug. "She's doing well, though. I'm happy, and I just pray for her peace."

If Gloria continues to do well, she might be moved out of the intensive care unit, possibly as early as tomorrow. She is expected to remain in the hospital for several more days, however.

Now that Gloria is breathing on her own, the focus shifts to more potential complications her cancer could create. She has a brain tumor, and the fear is that it might become destructive. She also has a tumor in her rib cage that is putting pressure on her left lung.

Gloria's parents are worried about bouts of labored breathing.

"There's no denying that there's going to be some stress on her lung," Doug said.

Doug said Gloria is on 70 milligrams per hour of a pain medicine called Dilaudid. When she entered the hospital last Saturday, she was on 120 milligrams of it. The lower level of medicine is working effectively. Gloria is experiencing some discomfort, but not an alarming amount.

She's also on a small amount of seizure medicine as a precaution.

Just before the ventilator was removed, Gloria became scared, her father said. But she relaxed and handled the extubation without incident.

The medical staff will keep a close eye on Gloria tonight. A machine is still monitoring her heart rhythm, and from that as well as her symptoms, the staff can determine how well she's breathing.

Gloria's parents still would resuscitate their daughter if she stopped breathing.

The father cautioned that Gloria has a ways to go.

"She still has to sit in that bed," Doug said. "We worry about how she's handling that. Sometimes, it just catches up to you."

August 25, 11:22 a.m.

Gloria made it through the night without any complications.

The 11-year-old ate apple sauce Friday night, her first solid food in nearly two weeks. She also watched a recording of Disney's "High School Musical 2," a favorite among the girls in the Strauss family.

She has done well breathing on her own. Doctors removed her ventilator more than 16 hours ago. And for about 36 hours prior to the extubation, Gloria was breathing with the ventilator turned down.

According to Gloria's father, Doug, the only problem she had overnight was confusion over where she was. For a few minutes, she thought she was at her nurse's house. After some explaining, Gloria remembered she was in the hospital.

Gloria's pain remains manageable. She's still taking 70 milligrams of Dilaudid each hour and complaining very little about her aches.

Today marks two weeks since Gloria, who suffers from a childhood cancer called neuroblastoma, entered Children's Hospital & Regional Medical Center. She has gone through the medical wringer -- seizures, intense pain, medically induced coma, ventilator -- but over the past week she has improved dramatically.

August 25, 6:39 p.m.

Gloria continues to do well. She might be moved out of the intensive care unit Sunday, but she'll remain hospitalized for several more days.

She has been off the ventilator for nearly 24 hours and had no problems. The strength of her left lung remains in question because of a tumor in her rib cage, but that tumor has yet to cause any trouble.

Gloria's father, Doug, was on his way to Tully's to get his daughter a smoothie and some caramel dip for apples when he gave the latest report.

Gloria spoke on the phone with her older sister, Alissa, this afternoon. Alissa was at a birthday party with the rest of the Strauss kids. Alissa said Gloria's voice -- strained from having a breathing tube down her throat for 13 days -- sounds like she has laryngitis.

August 26, 2:06 p.m.

In another encouraging development, Gloria Strauss has been moved out of the intensive care unit and into the hematology/oncology wing of the hospital.

Gloria, an 11-year-old who suffers from a childhood cancer called neuroblastoma, continues to breathe on her own without complications. She was taken off a ventilator Friday evening.

Gloria entered the hospital 15 days ago because of intense pain and seizures. She was put into a medically induced coma, but she came out of it Monday. Since then, she has steadily improved.

The Strauss family discovered Gloria had neuroblastoma more than four years ago. The Strausses are praying for a healing miracle, and in April, the family learned all medical signs suggest she is down to her final weeks.

But the past week has brought about two "mini-miracles," as the family calls them. First she awoke from the coma. Now she's breathing and able to communicate with her family.

There is no word yet on if or when Gloria will be allowed to be discharged from the hospital. She still has many serious issues, including a brain tumor and a tumor near her left lung.

August 27, 12:11 p.m.

Gloria is now eating normally and continues to get stronger.

"She likes butter," says her dad, Doug Strauss. "So we've been giving her toast with a lot of butter. And pasta. She's eating good. She's goin' to town."

Gloria, who has a cancer called neuroblastoma, was taken off a ventilator Friday and has experienced no problems breathing on her own. Last Monday, she came out of a medically induced coma. She has been at Children's Hospital & Regional Medical Center for 16 days now. She was admitted to the hospital because of seizures and intense pain.

Doug said he hopes Gloria can start the process of walking again today. She has been lying in a bed for more than two weeks, so her legs are weak. Her legs are also full of cancer, which complicates matters.

"It's a fine line between pushing her and letting her relax," Doug said.

August 27, 8:25 p.m.

I spoke briefly to Gloria for the first time in weeks this afternoon. Her parents, Doug and Kristen Strauss, let me say hello to her and tell her about all the people who have been thinking about her, praying for her and sending words of encouragement.

When I gave Gloria the news, she simply smiled and said, "Wow."

She's amazed by all of the support. It was nice seeing her smile again. When she smiles, it feels like the entire hospital lights up. Her family and friends have missed that smile.

Readers have been sharing all these thoughts about what Gloria's story has meant to them and marveling over how much fight she possesses. But those are all memories, and over the course of the past two-plus weeks, the seldom-stated question has been: What if memories are all that's left of Gloria?

Well, I can tell you that she still has life remaining. How much? I don't know. I don't know how much life you have, or how much I have, either. I just know that Gloria has made a remarkable comeback considering where she was just two weeks ago -- in a medically induced coma, attached to a ventilator, with people fearing the worst.

According to Doug, a physical therapist is scheduled to meet with Gloria today about helping her walk again. Her legs are weak and full of cancer. In the past, Gloria has mostly complained of pain in her left leg. Now she's talking more about the aches in her right leg.

Doug also said the family is considering taking her home this week, possibly as early as Wednesday. He said it depends on how she fares over the next few days.

August 28, 10:46 a.m.

With Gloria 's condition improving, it is time to work on Part 8 of the "A Prayer for Gloria" series. It is slated to run in the newspaper sometime this week. I'll keep you posted.

Much has happened in the short time since the last story, and I'm excited to try to put it all into perspective. The real challenge will be capturing the excitement of Gloria's improvement while also maintaining the reality of how much Gloria's cancer has spread. It would be negligent to overplay the good news. It would be equally negligent to underplay the good news. As always, balance is essential.

I'm going to share a few more reader reactions now. You're still welcome to share your thoughts about Gloria. E-mail me at jbrewer@seattletimes.com.

The first e-mail comes from Caitlin. Caitlin is from Canada and has watched her little sister battle cancer for two years.

Here's Caitlin.

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Hello Jerry,

I really don't even know where to begin when speaking about Gloria. I found her first article a few months ago and she has grabbed my heart and made me a believer ever since . While I live in Canada, my connection to The Strauss' story and spirit was instant. You see, my little sister was diagnosed with cancer in April of 2005 at the age of 12. I was 14. I have met countless inspiring children through my sister's battle, but there is something extra special about Gloria.

Few families completely believe in a miracle. I never did before "finding" Gloria. When the doctors say that no more can medically be done, families completely prepare for death but "hope" for a miracle. This is normal. Gloria doesn't just hope for the best, she believes that even the impossible is possible. I can't begin to explain how amazing her family has been through the countless trials that have been thrown their way. One would think these unfortunate events would cause the Strauss family to lose their faith, be angry with God, and become pessimistic. But their faith only grows with each increasingly difficult day.

Gloria's selflessness has impressed all of us. I will never forget her praying for the mother of an autistic child when she, medically, needs divine intervention the most. She constantly puts her agonizing pain and fears to the side to support others. So much more than the usual "making the most of every second" lesson can be learned from Gloria.

The importance of Gloria's story, I believe, is not whether she dies from this cancer . Everyone must die at some point, and there is no correct timeline medical professionals can truly give. Gloria has outlived all predictions. Gloria may die this month, or she may when she is 80. The important things are everything in between birth and death. And Gloria has already done so much. She has taught me to believe in spite of all evidence pointing to the contrary. Because there are always "exceptions," what we have now learned to call miracles. We must pray, and believe with all our hearts that Gloria can be granted a miracle. But of course we already know that she is miracle herself.

Best wishes,

Caitlin

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And the last e-mail in this batch comes from "Rachael S." Rachael has found perspective on what learning of Gloria's story means to her.

Here's Rachael.

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Hi Jerry,

I have been reading your articles and following your journal on Gloria and her family too. I am amazed at this family's strength and love not only for each other but also for God. I too am a Christian and have been thinking of writing to you for a while now, but I would think what can I say that would have any meaning other than that has been expressed by you, Gloria, her family or even others and would ultimately decide not to write.

But today I finished reading a book that put some things into perspective for me, and it might for others, too. Maybe even Gloria's family. A fatal illness for anyone is hard on everyone that loves this person. And it is especially hard when the person with a fatal illness is a child.

I pray for Gloria too, asking that God will give them their miracle and heal this little girl. But then I turn around and pray too that God's will be done here. Which ultimately we don't know. What is His will here? I agree with others that she (they) have already shared a miracle with many others. That her story has touched and changed the lives of many. This might be the will of God alone. This might be the miracle given. We will have to wait upon the Lord here though.

One of the stories that was shared with you was from a pediatric nurse and a medical viewpoint on whether Gloria's family should have brought back Gloria when her heart stopped. In this day and age, life is taken very lightly. What with abortion, stem cell research, genetic research, cloning, what have you. But God says in the Bible, in an excerpt from Deut. 30:19, "Now choose life so that you and your children may live and that you may love the Lord your God."

Basically this means that in all ways , in every way possible , He is telling us to choose life. No matter how hard that road may be, no matter what trials may come from it, no matter the pain involved we are to choose life. I feel that this is what Gloria and her family is doing. I am incredibly proud of them for doing so. I stand in awe of their strength and commitment in doing so.

Really, God is the giver of life and He alone should be the taker of life. If there is a time again that Gloria's heart stops beating and the doctors bring her back, well, this is a message from God saying He is not quite ready to open His arms to her yet. Believe me, when it is Gloria's time to go home to our Lord, and her heart stops beating, there is nothing the doctors will be able to do to bring her back. He will have taken her. So until that time I pray that this family fights for every breath and every moment of time that they have with her. When the time comes for Gloria to go home, they can look back over this time and say they have no regrets.

Rachael S. from SW Michigan

August 28, 5:08 p.m.

It's been a pretty quiet day for Gloria. When I visited the hospital, she was sleeping. Though she has improved greatly, she's still very fatigued and rests much of the day.

For those who've been following the series, I'd compare Gloria right now to when she had those nine days of immobility in July. She's trapped in her hospital bed and trying to deal with it. She has some ups and downs, but she knows what she's been through, so she's more encouraged than discouraged.

Today, most of the talk was again about physical therapy to help Gloria walk. The physical therapists weren't there when I was, but Gloria's father, Doug Strauss, said he was expecting them this afternoon.

Doug reiterated that, if all goes well, the family intends to bring Gloria home this week. The father has been targeting Wednesday, but he backed off that timeline a little today. The end of the week seems a more likely departure date, he said.

August 29, 12:38 p.m.

Gloria and her parents are meeting with Stepping Stones, a division of the Providence Hospice of Seattle, today. It's another step toward Gloria leaving the hospital.

Doug Strauss said he he's hoping to take his daughter home Friday.

The Strausses have been working with Stepping Stones since July to help control Gloria's pain and manage her other medication. When her pain increased dramatically Aug. 11, it was a hospice ambulance that escorted Gloria to Children's Hospital & Regional Medical Center.

Gloria's legs are still weak, and the cancer in them is still restricting her ability to walk. But she's in good spirits. The entire family spent some quality time in her room Tuesday night.

The Strausses are amid a hectic period right now because they're trying to get the other children ready for school, which starts Tuesday.

"As of right now, we plan on having them go to school," said Gloria's mother, Kristen. "Now that Gloria is doing better, we're trying to give our kids some sense of normalcy."

August 30, 1:43 p.m.

I've been away working on the eighth installment of the "A Prayer for Gloria" series. It is scheduled to run in Friday's newspaper.

Gloria is still doing well. She remains on pace to be discharged from the hospital this weekend. Last night, a small group of the family's "prayer warriors" prayed with Gloria. It was a moving, uplifting time.

Gloria's parents, Doug and Kristen Strauss, want to continue keeping visitors at a minimum so that Gloria stays relaxed and doesn't feel self-conscious. But she's in good spirits and enjoying time with her family.

Gloria's oldest brother, Joe, turned 7 today. Doug and Kristen are quietly putting together a small party for him.

Last Saturday, Joe was part of a big birthday celebration with two family friends, Peter and Mary Vertetis. Peter (who is 8) and Mary (4) are the children of Tom and Jennifer Vertetis, two of the Strauss family's closest friends.

August 30, 7:37 p.m.

Gloria Strauss will be staying in the hospital a little while longer.

During a conversation with her parents, Gloria told them she feels more comfortable with nurses and doctors close by.

"She wants to have that secure feeling," said her mother, Kristen. "We're in no hurry to leave. The doctors are in no hurry for us to leave. We think this is the right thing to do."

Kristen didn't give a timeline for Gloria's release. There's still hope for next week, but it all depends on what Gloria wants.

Gloria has several complicated little problems that are easier to monitor in the hospital. One key issue is getting Gloria to feel well enough to sit up whenever she wants to, Kristen said. It's painful for Gloria to move right now. She's sore from both the cancer in her body and from lying in a bed for nearly three weeks.

Gloria has been working with physical therapists the past few days to strengthen her body. She sits up for a few moments at a time. She's also been lifting her knees toward her stomach and getting her legs massaged.

Gloria still has some swelling in her legs, which her parents say could be from medications lingering in her system.

Overall, Gloria's progress remains encouraging.

August 31, 11:00 a.m.

In Part 8 of "A Prayer for Gloria" today, we focus on healing, both physical and mental. As Gloria improves, so does her family.

The most memorable part of the story is reflected in the headline: "I want my miracle. I want my family." Gloria tells this to her father, Doug, a day the before her ventilator is removed. This was the moment that inspired Doug to push for Gloria to be taken off the ventilator. She had been initiating her breathing for several days, and after this conversation, Doug knew she had the willpower to breathe herself.

Instead of wandering through a medical analysis of Gloria's recovery, I did more of a family analysis. Throughout this series, family and faith have been emphasized more than medicine to give it a tender and personal touch, and once again I felt it was more important to show how the Strausses have responded to the good news.

You could describe it as measured joy. They're very happy. They still believe God will heal Gloria. But they understand her predicament even more now that they know cancer has spread to her brain and caused a fluid buildup around her left lung. As Doug said in this story, the parents will talk more to the children about heaven.

If you recall Part 3 of the series ("She's my best friend . but sometimes it's complicated"), the focus was on kids being kids despite Gloria's cancer. We're reminded of that in this story, but we also learn how kind and compassionate the six other Strauss children are.

When reporting this piece, the material that touched me the most was the alone time Doug had with daughter Maria, in which she played a song for him and Dad learned his little girl was lonely. Then they held each other and later danced together.

Part 8 was shorter than the others, and in the editing process, some good material needed to be cut. At first, it looked like the Dad and Maria bit wouldn't make it. Fortunately, I found a way to squeeze it in.

I especially wanted to show all the children in this piece. Only 11-month-old Vincent is left out; he's a baby, so his emotions aren't as clear as the others. Through the children, we realize the true joy of Gloria being awake. It's the little things that matter -- a smile here, a kiss there, a few kind words.

These moments are what the family desperately needed. As the story ends, the sense is that the Strausses are at peace and waiting for the next phase of this journey.

Somehow, they always find a way to get back to that state of mind.

August 31, 5:50 p.m.

Gloria is a little agitated today. She's experiencing some labored breathing and more pain than the past few days.

"We're trying to stay on top of her pain," said Gloria's mother, Kristen Strauss.

The medical staff hasn't upped her pain medication yet. She's taking 80 milligrams per hour of Dilaudid. But Gloria can ask for extra doses of Dilaudid between each hour, and she's been doing so for most of the day.

Everyone is also paying careful attention to Gloria's legs, which remain weak and swollen.

As for her breathing, she's going to have some problems from time to time, Kristen said. A tumor in Gloria's rib cage is causing a fluid buildup near her left lung. Kristen said the family is still exploring its options on how to remedy that problem.

Doctors took Gloria off a ventilator a week ago. She remains upbeat, but when I visited her, she was drowsy.